Jean Roch - Can you feel it

I don't feel right to be at home this time...
Usually I'll be breaking at Esplanade until very very late...
Oh I hate this feeling~~~

Why the hell is NDP rehersal on today???!!! : (
But I think is it's good for me to take a rest.Whole body's aching so couldn't really break today...

Lolz,went to house class for the first time with Shantelle~Oh my god it was really very tiring but house is really dope and cool!!!!!^_^And I went to slack with those bboys breaking there after that~

Ahh....So damn not right...Aching to break...

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Heart skipped a beat but life goes on^_^

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I'll one day overcome my fear to become doper.

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I really don't like people who always make last minute changes... : (

Loving breaking,lots and lots...

It's too fast that I lost passion in locking and now loving breaking sooooo much.

I was extremely hyper(I've never been soooo hyper before and Jh and Wh were stunned :P) at first today,but there was something on the floor that I didn't notice,and I cut my hand... : (

: (   Thus I couldn't do footworks,I guess it'll be the same situation for tomorrow and Sunday... : (  

How sad???!!!I feel sooooo bad... : (

P.S.  I used 10+ plasters that Joshy bought for me just tonight!!!Lolz~~~By the way,thanks Joshy :D

Feeling nothing to do,so started to train freezes.Airchair,bridge to hollow back and some transitions of chair I forgot what are those called.Those moves(chair transitions)made my hair fell a lot!!!I'll never do those moves that require my head to drag on the floor again!!!At least,I need a beanie~~

I was exhausted today.But I had lots of fun and laughters.

Love all the Sweats,Pains,Blood And Beats ^_^

Today's the last time Joshy came to break at Esplanade before his N's...So we two stayed there until 11 plus.We were soooooo damn tired that our arms were shaking when we do freezes.

I can feel the improvement now.

And now I finally know how it feels.Love this feeling and this motivates me to keep on breaking cos I believe that I can make it and I'll be better ^_^

Harder,Better,Faster,Stronger :P

I'm totally disgusted by him,what the hell did he say???!!!I feel damn fucked up when I see your face or hear your voice.Can you just get out of my sight and back to your gang???!!!By the way,you'll never get in to any battles or whatever just by doing those freezes to show off your strength k?Disgusting shit!

I wasn't thinking highly of myself,and that sentence is TRUE.

Pardon me for saying these.I know my words are harsh.

I don't mind people calling or recognizing me as a bgirl now~Lolz :P

By the way I was doing some footworks before my hand was cut.Jh and Wh were staring at me and asked if I bite those from him and said that the style really looked like his...I didn't bite that much k?Plus I ain't that pro to bite his footworks which is damn fast!!!...

(30 July 2010,Friday)

 

Idiot!I am still waiting for your reply though...

It's only 19 days...Lolz...

I'll stop being silly anymore.

All those memories and words are now too far away.

I won't go back to read them anymore.

I look forward,never look back.

Tomorrow's Joshy's last day to go Esplanade before N's!!! : (

I feel like everyone is leaving me...

I really need a hardcore rest.

Aching to try out new crazy footworks tomorrow ^_^ I can't wait!!!

Ah ah!!!!Joshy went to watch 'Streetdance' today!!!!!I also wana watch!!!!>.<

I gotta improve all I can ^_^
Before yall come back.

I love my Life,

And you can never bring me down.

So this is how you actually are?

Fine...

Just bear with it for 2 more days,and Friday will come.

I gonna be as hyper as Mel last night to dance all the stress out.

Just say 'I hate you' and smile!^_^

Let's stop dreaming and move on.

Imma going to try out some new moves on Friday!!!Can't wait to dance and to meet my friends!!! :P

I don't wana be a bgirl but I love breaking~

I think,you are nothing to me now...But why do I still miss you???

Today's my bad day?I felt quite miserable...

I tear...again...

I don't know which side of you to believe,but why do I still smile and feel so close when I meet you?And why did I still expect those things that you've promised to me?
It's gonna be the last time I cry,just tonight.After that,everything's gonna be alright and I gonna move on.
But I still hope it's not like that...


Dont' break it,my heart is still too fragile.
I gotta be stronger.
I will.


I know that crying and being emotional are just worthless and useless.Especially for these things.
Cry no more.
I'll move on,I'll get over all the pains,I'll be stronger.
Trust me,I'll prove them right to let you see!


And I'll keep it,until the day to come.Will I wait?
続いてくことを祈っているよ。


This mixture of feeling...I've never felt this way before...


爱ということを知った...

I feel so fucked up now.Shut up Fucker!
It's my life.

Lolz,though I swore not to use vulgar again,but I...feel better now,after saying it,or rather,typing it.

Yeah I know I'm too slack,but I know my limit.I know where to stop.

Ok just came back from Weihao's birthday dinner~Ahh!!!!So last minute!!! :P

WTF,I shall chill and relax before I go to bed...
Whatever shit and crap you said,is none of my business.
Fuck off!

Don't think too highly of yourself,can you respect?!And who do you think you are???!!!

Oh I shouldn't use vulgar...Haiz...

NYP tomorrow...

Oh cheer up^_^

I'm exhausted.Whole body's aching again.Hoooo it's been awhile yeah~I love pain,no pain no gain ^_^
Friday's coming soon!!!!! ^_^


I think I should really rest well~Now feeling a bit dizzy don't know why...


Need basic!!!


Haiz...Hard to admit but it seems that I've no more feeling or passion about locking now...I'm sooooo into breaking...Oh no...   : (     It's not the way I want but I can't help it...Bgirl???!!! Oh man...No no no!!!


Going to NYP on tuesday with Mel.Oh I gotta rush there after CCA and I know I'll be very exhausted again...But it's gonna be the last time we meet each other before he going in to army~Haha~  :P


Love my new friends love my new freeze love my new footworks... ^_^


EUSD!!!!Hahaha!!!!Random and cute!!!!And if people know what does it mean,they'll surely be like this -  =.=''    


FUN!FUNK!

Oh Noooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I just feel like shouting!!!!I'm sooooooo high now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I CAN DO AN AIRCHAIR NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Ok Pardon me...


Haha today was damn high so I tried it for the first time,and now I can hold it for longest 5 seconds ^_^ They all stunned :P


I feel sooooooooooo good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^_^ Love this feeling!!!!!


Yay I love Esplanade,there makes me high!!!!'


Woohoo,I'm too excited that I've forgotten about what happende today~~~




Oh yeah I tried Hong10 freeze which I thought is easier than airchair...It's not!!!!


Like to break with Tin!Cos we can do many many crazy bitchy moves!!!! :P


Yay!Airchair!!!


I love it's feeling ^_^

Today's session at Esp was fun,but regret that I slacked too much...
Haha,was fooling around with my new friends,Peter and Josh crazily.It's so good and cool to have new friends ^_^
By the way,heehee people said that the variation of prezel that Mel taught me is nice :P


No foundations,no basics,so what the hell have you been doing for the past year?Showing off and training your strength is just as useless as you.Crappy!LOLZ!!!!
Can't you just disappeared???!!!

Just some random thoughts...

One day,I'll prove yall wrong;

One day,I'll be in;

One day,I'll have the strength to do what I want and what I like;

One day,I'll smoke yall,and,laugh;

One day,I'll have that too,like yours;

One day,I'll be able to stand up by myself;

One day,I'll not be crying or feeling sad over those stupid things;

One day,I'll be more mature;

One day,I'll be proud of being one;

One day,I'll be stronger

And one day,I'll be *****

I hope you see this and think so too.



Yall never fail to disappoint me
One day I'll never need to rely on anybody again.
Haha,sounds impossible though~

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Just recieved Ji's call.

Feels good to keep in touch with old friends.

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Now I think,it's not a big deal.

Chill.

If it'll no longer stays this way,

Means it doesn't belong to me

nor I belong to it.

I'll just

let it go

and

move on.

I shall don't give it a damn,Just dance!

^_^




I miss it

思念是苦的，回忆才是甜的。思念最苦的莫过于，心戚戚然，不知相思为何物。最近常常陷入思念之中，会莫名的一阵发呆和走神。七窍走了几个，所剩无几。我常常会想的太多，事过境迁之后才明白，凡事并不如我所想。一切或顺其自然，或奋力搏击，无它。

Oh no...I'm having fever again...I just caought fever on week before last week...Haiz...No wonder I felt sooooooo sick and uncomfortable and cold in school today...Fever loves me so much huh??? : (
I really need to rest well now...
Hopefully I can recover by Friday,I need to dance,I wana dance...  : (  Pleeeeease!!!!!!!!!!
Don't feel like telling parents that I'm having fever again...
What the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Ok gotta sleep and rest now...


: (

Was slacking throughtout the training at RP just now.Too sleepy and tired.Maybe cos of today's weather~
Seldom see bboys train lots of footworks.I think footworks are damn cool!Mel and Siach's footworks are so fast and clear!
We thought we'd go to Larry's class at studio,but we realised that he wasn't there~Haha!

I don't think I can go for the concert on Saturday.I'm having shore throat again.Emm,I think it'd be good too~So that I can dance on Saturday instead of wasting time there!!!! :P

Well I was puzzled,but I think hmm,I shall just chill,relax,and let it be~Who knows what will happen?
Don't expect too much on something~
What you want will belong to you if it meant to be ^_^
I still hope that I'll get it though~

I just found out something~Oh I think it's quite good to stay this way too~ : )
But when I think it over,those things screw me up again and again...Why?...I'll find out somedays~


For these few days,I've been thinking to find a right time to quit.Hell,I shouldn't have played this joke!!!!!!

(Haha this picture looks quite cool~but I don't like her? hand~)

Today's really sleepy day.Fell asleep in Chinese class which the teacher never gives me a damn~Haha :P

It's the first time I slept for so long in class cos I didn't text much today. =.=''

I wish my blanket could stick on me throughout the whole night... : (

Ooh yay tomorrow is a very free day!!!^_^

Gotta collect shirt from SD which I've dragged for very very long time with Mel then head for RP to DANCE!!!!! :D

He's friends are coming too~

Miss RP~~~Heehee~~ :P

Hope I won't be left out like last time...

(I wish I can have a big lovely soft toy to sleep with me,haha :P)

I was supposed to break today,but ended up with slacking with Mel at Orchard...

I bought something for my bro.We chat this morning which we've not been doing for a loooooong time.^_^

Mel and I went to change the otoizm,and now my pet is alive^_^Damn cute and sweet :P Heehee~

Now I know what Nicholas meant and why he said that to me finally...

My left hand is still numb,but it's getting better now^^

I found a bruise on my right shoulder~Blame my crappy windmill!!!

Imma saving money now~But wana buy a ribbon,earpiece and a pair of shoes.Preferably a pair of light purple shoes.The 'fat' ones for hip hop. :P  Maybe~~~Nike?Haha~

Ah ah,not dancing today makes me feel so restless...I'm afraid I'd forget the footworks that Wh and Mel taught me~~~And lock lock lock...

Oh my god don't know what's wrong with Wh today~He NEVER answer me on msn or sms but he juz talked to me on msn,said that he started dancing with locking...=.=''...Wooooooooo not lion dance huh???Hahaha!!!

Imma going to RP on tuesday^_^

I'm sleepy... : (

(Painkiller)

I couldn't walk in the morning so I took 2 types of different painkillers.Hoping I'd be able to walk properly and dance tonight.

It worked^_^ But maybe because of it,my left hand is numb...

Just finished bathing after going to Esplanade to break with Mel.Haha I learnt new things today again!!!Feeling goooooood :D !

Now I'm very sure that I love bboying and footworks now~^_^~

Yay!!!

...Nearly forgot about locking...Yeah yeah yeah,gotta lock more~~~

Mel bought me an ozoium?(Eh,forgot how to spell~~) and treated me for dinner~Thanks him so much ^^

Wooooo I didn't know there's soooooo many underpass that connect shopping malls at Orchard together until today...=.=''

I'm sleepy~Was quite slacked as Esplanade.

17.01.2010 Sat

(We had lots of fun today^_^)

Too bad the injury of my left ankle got worse and I don't even know how did I injure it... : (

Haiz...Couldn't do much today and I feel extremely wasted when Wh and Mel taught me those cool footworks...Haiz...Please recover soon!!! : (

Cute?Yeah I love cute things^_^

Eh, I'm cute?...Emm...

Went to shopping at far east them~And now I know that guys are also very picky and slow when they're shopping~Haha :P

Nich said,'don't join a crew for fun,that's stupid'...

Ah,yeah I'm kind of stupid... : (

16.07.2010 Fri

(I'm not belong to it anymore...)

Woo yay!!!!!!!!!Friday tomorrow!!! :D

Yeah I like receiving messages after I switching on my hand phone.So that I will force myself to wake up and some of it makes my day ^_^ Sweet :P

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I ♥ sweet things...

Sweet talks

Sweet hugs

Sweet smiles

Sweet and cute soft toys...Emm,though I have none... : (   Haha!

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Zhitao's not participating YOG.What a pity...

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Yay!!!Dancing tomorrow!!! ^_^

Haha,saw this cute picture^_^

It's so good for being young.Energetic!

We dance!

(Here,theme is Fame,not Lady Gaga :P)

I feel very happy^_^

Yay 2 more days to weekend!

I love long texts : )

Never restrain yourself in one small circle.

Expose,discover^_^

Time zoomed pass.

I gotta stop using vulgar,at least in front of my brother.Feel a bit sorry for him.I've been a bad and rebellious sister.I hope he won't be like me~

Dears,I like it this way ^_^

I wish it could stay this way forever.

Don't recover till next Sat please...

A brand new world.

Someone said,

每段友情等于一个新的世界。

The way he talks is just like him,I was quite surprised :P

Will I really ditch it in future?

I played a little bit badminton today.I feel like going back.I miss my bad' buddies.

I lost many things after I fell in love with dancing.

But I love what I get because of it and I never regret ^_^

Overprotected?

I just came back from RP.Jh,said that he's not coming yesterday but still came.Wh also came^_^Too bad they're always late and I had to leave earlier : ( Haha Syaq was so surprised when he found out that his seniors are my friends :P

Sleepy sleepy~~~If Jh didn't text me I'd fall asleep in class.

I'm in deep doubt...I hate this feeling.

(Nice cloud,heartbreaker! :P)

I'm very sick... :( I lost my voice and was having headache in the morning...

Because of it,I last minute decided not to go for TBG...I sold the ticket away.Haiz...

Nevertheless I went to RP to dance in the afternoon though I wanted to rest.I need to sweat I love the sweat.

Heehee while I was again waacking in the emo corner 2 friends came to say hi to me ^_^

Went to break with Jh,Wh and Bryan today at Esplanade^_^There were very little bboys.Maybe bcos of raining.
It's like I need to restart learning the whole windmill all over again after Wh correcting me now... :(

Why are those pros so underground and low profile?

And I saw Melrick  ^^

Thanks Wh and can Jh stop talking those things that are 'not suitable for me to hear' in front of me please~~~So as them... =.=''  Lolz.

Woooooooooooo polluted... T_T

Tomorrow TBG.I'm tired and I don't wana go... $33...Emm...Haiz...I am,seriously,don't feel like going...





I'm a bit confused...
Never mind,it's nothing~





I like to be with them^_^


10 July 2010 (Sat)

疲れた...

I'm not going to wear contact lens and going to be a blind for tomorrow.My eyes were damn red when I was wearing them.

Now I can't see things clearly.All blurry...

I hate this weekend.Gonna be busy and again,I can't rest.

Went to SPH,finally and got the pass.

Locking course's over soon~~~

♥Locking♥

Injury on my back has totally fucked up my day.


I feel very bad.


Emm,better now.


I'm selfish.
Willful.


Although he said that I'm a girl so I have the priority to do so.


Hmm,I better stop.


Please!Backahe please fuck off now.




Went to meet Shir and Kel K juz now.

(I like this picture^_^)

Saw Jos's nice shoulder freeze on zbcomma.And that's how we started texting today.Long time no see each other.Haha but too bad he's busy and lives quite far away from here.I wonder when will be the next time we meet to break.

Jos!!!Never give up on breaking ok???!!!And yes I'll continue your passion for it heehee^_^

I'm having terrible backache because of waacking...Haha,funny???... :(

I suspect there's something wrong with my elbow too...Never mind~

I feel good to recieve messages after I switching on my phone in the morning.It's just much more efficient than the annoying alarm clock :D

I've not been dacing for so many days.I feel weak.

But I think I need to rest?Jh asked me to see a doctor for my back...Well,it is really terrible.I can't even straighten my back.Ouch!It hurts!!!

2 of my friends are attached♥^_^♥Yoohoo~

I want to meet someone to chat with though texting is fun.Emm,or dance with.

All the injuries,please fuck off!!!

I shall stop using vulgar?Haha! :P

Just saw this interesting sentence while surfing the net:

人生最悲哀的事情，就是你发现曾经一路上，和你一起的人，渐渐地就离你远去了。也许是因为结婚生子，也许是因为劳累不堪负荷，也许是因为理想渐异，也许是因为反目成仇。但是你还是要继续孤独地走下去，因为你知道，你的目的地还没有到达，你还有更大的梦想。

I love locking but I prefer breakbeats.
Haha I tried to lock with Begging and it's weird.


I realised I can't really do which-a-way anymore since Sunday.My right knee is injured.
So as my right arm.I feel constant pain in the joint and I can feel the bone 'moving' and making sound when I bend it.I don't know what's wrong but I hope it's nothing.


Suddenly felt like touching the piano after not touching it for 6 months.It's covered by dust.My fingers have become numb and dumb.I couldn't feel the music,I couldn't enjoy it anymore.I feel quite sad,but that was my choice.Lolz.


Haha,let street jazz be the next!!!


Yay I'm recovered from fever.I CAN DANCE NOW!!!!!!!




我得到的，就不想失去了。








BAD&SELFISH

I want to dance...


Jh kept showing off that he's going to break at RP today.WTF!!!=.=''


:(


And we 'talked about life' juz now.Haha don't u find it funny?Suddenly talk about life~~~


We're inspired by Bgirl Grandma.We'll still dance when we're old!!!!!!


Old...

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Fuck you shut up!Yur voices bother me,that's why I like to hang out and slack.

I'm such a pro!!!Lolz,went to dance and slacked at RP for the whole day not knowing that I caught fever~


But how strange huh?I was alright and nothing wrong until just now when I was waiting for Jh and slacking with those new friends there...Haiz...


I feel so sick,but I still wana dance...


Poor him~


Shir's also hving fever...


Can everything be alright soon?



Yay!!!Got 73 awesome breakbeats from my new friend^_^  Eh...I need locking beats too~~~ :P

I was supposed to go to Esplanade today,but Jh and Wh were held up by their job.Lolz...Disappoint me everytime... :(
Haha,and I went to RP alone.It was kind of bored but I realised that I can do more things I want when dancing alone~However,I felt damn emo when I went to break for the last few hours...Haiz...Really cannot break alone.I was about to go until 4 bboys came around 9.They are very friendly and we had fun^_^.They saw me before but I didn't~Haha,they recognize me as 'the girl who always dance alone in a corner'.Haha!!Lolz,cos I always go to a corner when I'm not breaking. :P

I love breaking now.And now I know one of the reasons why didn't I love breaking at first.Haha!Blame them!!!Opps! :X I'm kidding!!!Hahaha!

Dance and friends are the best cure ^_^

I forgot who told me this:Bgirls don't cry.

^_^

Eh,no no no,I still prefer to lock!!!So...Bgirl???...

My heart is full of guilt when I think of that.

I feel saved.

I went to RP to dance today.Jh also came at night.Lolz,Afc was cyphering and *hahaha  :P
Pardon me...

Oh I'm sick of the last minute change and coming late everytime.So haha,be punctual tomorrow!! :P

How am I going to improve everything?

It's so good to have a group of friends to slack with everyday like them.Haha,I wish I could be as free as them :x

Oh my whole body is aching!!!!!!!!! :(

Today's early.

I feel bad and sad cos my friend feels so,and I think this mood is gonna destroy my day...

So later Imma be alone literarily...

Look at the weather,what a moody day.

Wow it was the first time I went to Esplanade to dance on Friday.And there's sooooo many dope bboys who we've never seen before.We were stunned.Haha :P They're cool!!!!!!
There was a lot of people there.Not only the bboys but the skaters and rollerbladers.I like the noise.I didn't feel like sleeping and tired anymore~

I didn't go for the locking class today,again.

My injury got a lot better ^_^

Haha,2 bboys there helped me out with windmill.Yay this time I really felt the improvement.Thanks to them!^_^

I didn't really lock yesterday.I felt it's very weird to lock in a place where packed by bboys~ :x

There were 3 Jh's friends with us.And to celebrate one of them's birthday,they bought a cake.But after we finished breaking,we realised that the cake was melt and it looked...Hmm,disgusting.Haha~

I just don't like staying at home.

Weekends!!!!!!Woohoo!!!!!!

I'm talking to my old best friend Haoran now.We've not been keeping in touch for 2 yrs.I feel great ^_^ I miss him a lot.Spain and Singapore.So damn far apart...

I think I'll die in sch tomorrow.Just came back home from dinner with friends at Upper Thomson Rd...Oh man it's so damn far!!!!!

Going to SP tomorrow^_^Emm,to...break...

Yay weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^_^