Let The Sun Shine In

This song is breaking my heart. I almost cried.


I'm so freaking sick still. I feel like it's worse than yesterday.
It seems like I've never ever felt so sick before. Well, to be exact for years..
: (

No energy -.-

25 Feb 2011 Friday


Though I just recovered from fever, I'm still freaking sick.
So I had a hard time for the session today.
Cos I felt that I was short of breathe and my heart started to pump so freaking fast just for doing a small chilled set of footwork.
I kept crashing cos I got dizzy and eyes became blurry when I was on the floor. Especially the later part of the session...

Zzzzzz....

This must probably be the feeling of going through hell  -.-

Dva and Chuck also drilled me~~~~~

Omg I've never felt so exhausted before...

But I still went full out haha!! Didn't slack at all in between.

Gotta be fully recovered fast!!!!!!

Hmm but kinda worthy haha! I got some new moves :P


Next week is common test week : (
Damn I don't think I'm ready for it...
Going to Anson with Mark tomorrow to drill my maths.
Shit I don't know how am I going to be fucked by chemistry man...  : /
Sighhhhh.......


Can't wait for March holiday...
I want a break, a break, break break break, break for break...

fEvEr -.-

No wonder I felt like dying for the past 2 days.
I woke up this morning with 38.9 degree body temperatrure -.-

Geeeeeeeez........
Next week is common test man......
What the fuck seriously??!!

Sighhhh..

Hopefully the fever will be gone tomorrow. So that I can go to meet Mark at Anson.
And hopefully after that I can go and break for awhile to sweat it out.

GG.

Shagggggg to the max

I'm sick!
And I sound so man and sexy now HAHA -.-

Gg, I lost my flexibility.
My front split is gone.
Damn

I still can't hear the alarm clock in the morning.

I'm getting more sleepy day by day.

My body is so damn freaking weak now.

I wanna break or at least move but I feel like there's no energy.

Zzzzz...

Common test is starting from next week.
I think I'm not ready yet.
Imma get it back, before I sleep today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How could I lose it??!!

I'm seriously consedering something about my breaking life~
Lolz~

Study and break~~~

Argghhh my front split..
Heartbroken : (

My first ever battle :D

19 Feb 2011 Saturday

TODAY WAS AN EPIC DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!

Lolz!!!!

I was backup for Jonah's partner, in the end it turned into Mic and I, both the backup of Jonah's partner, formed a team and joined the battle last minute.

Nich came to me and asked if I wanted to join the battle cos they were short of 1 team. I hesitated and told him that I didn't have a partner. I went to ask Xav if I should, and he said just go. So I asked if Mic wanted to join me cos he was just sitting beside. He said okie. Lolz.
The funny part is, when Nich asked for giving a crew name, I said,' Ok.. Just random.. RANDOM CREW!!!!'

Yeah, so, RANDOM crew!! Haha!
Nich randomly asked me if I wanna join,
I randomly asked if Mic wanna join with me,
And we got this random crew name.
Lolz!
Everything was unexpected.
Really thanks for Nich to gimme this chance. Cos it's very hard to take the first step and if not for him, I wonder how long would I wait to take the first move and gain the battle experience : )

I was freaking nervous as I wasn't prepared at all! Furthermore, it was going to be my first ever battle.
My friends were trying to calm me down haha! My hands were cold lolz.
However, after watching some of the battles, I felt better and beginning to gain more confidence heehee :P

Our battle was the last one. Everybody laughed when Felix said 'Raondom Crew, where's Random Crew?' HAHA!!!
Anyway, though Nich said that they were short of 1 team, the last battle somehow became a 3-way battle.
The opponets are FSM(Karl and Smoki), and RF(Jellyman and Shadowman).
The most epic and funniest thing is, I didn't even know that the other crew was actually RF until Shaz told me on the way home >.<
And I got damn surprised!! LOL!!!!!! So that's no wonder the other 3 didn't go to those 2 over there -.-  Gg.....
K.. Friends told me that I was fierce -.-
I did my bridge incomplete trainsition in the end, to smoke one of the RF guy's bridge. Zzzzzz.....

Anyway, luckily I didn't know that it was RF, or else I'd have the fear and wouldn't be dare to go all out haha~
As I was unprepared. Everything was massy and some moves were even repetitive. Oh well, it's my first battle~~ And hmm.. At least I did something that created the 'wow' efffect ^^
Well, lolz, I was, insane -.-

It was amazing that all me fear and nervousness were gone the moment I stepped into the circle.
Haha!
The feeling was really dope XD
Not only that, all me dear friends who cheered, supported and encouraged me by shouting during the battle also helped me to get rid of the fear : )
My friends are great!!! I ♥ them so much!! Haha Fir said, it's what we do for one another-Love Unity and Respect.
It's just so heart-warming : )

The result of the battle was going to the point system. We didn't get in though. But the experience I got is really worthwhile and precious ^_^

Yes I could definitely do much better if I was prepared.
Dva told me about it too, and added I'm not like that usually : (  Yeah I know. I was under-performance today... Sigh..
I feel that it was kinda wack though friends are telling me that I did good today.
He said that he's going to give me more moves and I have to win.
I really appreciate him for teaching and drilling me so much recently : )

And of course my dear brothas Mark and Julian : )

Thanks for the battle today. It gave me a huge motivation.

So I've got kinda enough footwork.
Now gotta work to clean them up and learn to freestyle with the beat.
Need power too.
Train hard, and gotta be battle-ready.
Imma try to be ready as soon as possible so that I'll be prepared to join the next coming up event.

I've entered a battle.
Now I can proudly say that,
I'm a bgirl.

^_^

What an awesome and exciting day.



 

Full out day!

18 Feb 2011 Friday




Yay it was another great and all-out day ^^


I'm so exhausted >.<  Lolz, my left wrist is swollen now : /




In between Xav asked me to talk for awhile, and soon after some others joined and it became a group of us  talking and chilling at CHAT.
Some serious stuff and of course, crap!!!!!! Haha!!

It means a lot to you when someone actually trusts you by talking to you something that can't be shared to everyone isn't it? : )


After that Dva and I had numerous continuous rounds of battles continuously. Omg it felt worse than my birthday battle the other time haha!
It was more tiring than that cos I went really full out for every single throwdown. However I simply slacked of some of my turns during the birthday battle :P
Anyway, I just wanna say that it's a good way to improve myself : )
Yeah man, I shall try hard to be a freestyler~


Going to R to watch RTTF tomorrow. Hopefully we can cypher a lil bit : ) After that we'll be back to our 'homeground' again to break : )
Good luck for friends who're participating ^^

I am, again, fucking demoralised by math : /
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........................
: (

School is a bitch!

For these 2 weeks, I completely knock out when I sleep. I can't hear the alarm clock, I thought this kinda of things wouldn't happen to me : /

Zzzzz........... So freaking tired...

And I don't know why is my left vision so freaking blur even when I'm wearing the contact lens -.-
How can it become so bad in such a short time.. What the hell.

Arghh! Fuck school, fuck CCA, fuck tests , fuck everything that's about school!! ..
!!!!!!!!!!!


All out tomorrow.

I ♥ to fool around with my friends ^_^

Today was funnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't wait for friday! >.<

Zzzzzzz.... Shit... Common test.. : (


Lolz lolz! I looked so different in Dickies today : /



I can't accept but to always reject. Just because of what I see and what I hear that disgusted me.
Next time I shall just walk away.
Hope it's not too late.


A friend that has been MIA for kinda long tested me today. Besides saying that he'll appear on friday, he also advised me to lay off something.
I was first very shocked, and seconds later, I somehow felt touched. I don't know how to describe that feeling me.
I don't know. I feel sorry.

Dickies~~

Lolz I'm quite 'rich' this week, so I went to buy a pair of navy blues Dickes shorts. Navy blues, but it's actually kinda like black. Just that it's lighter.
Haha, after spending 55 bucks for it, I'm poor now :P

Going to break tmr. So let's try how it feels~~

I need more sleep and I need more time.. : /
Sighh... Tired..


-Just pretend you're in a movie. Be as brave and as full of love as the main character. Because we all need to believe in movies, sometimes.



 
 

~Valentines Day~

Nah it was just a normal day for me~~~

After studying at Scape, went to break at Esp. Syafiq was there! Haha!! I was very surprised to see him :P
We played the game 'Monkey See Monkey Do'. That's how we celebrated out Valentines Day haha ^_^

I'm so happy now!

Shit now I have problem bringing the heavy and bulky speaker to Scape on wednesday : /

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I feel so damn high now ^_^
Cos today's session was freaking dope!!!!

Dva pulled me in for 2 battles, against Mic and him. After that we cyphered.

I'm glad I still remember all those moves that  the 3 guys taught me last night : )

Oh yeah before that Shalom came. It was the first time I teach someone. I taught her 6 step, later on Weiqiang also joined. Lolz~ Pardon me for my patient : /  I went to clean up those moves after teaching them for awhile... Hehh... Jonah was there to teach~~~ Haha so...
:P

I really appreciate Dva a lot for taking his time teaching me step by step : )  He doesn't usually do that haha~
He taught me some cool toprock today! And I got it ^_^  Mic, the girl I mean Shaz's 'daughter', Mic and I got very happy after I toprocking what he taught to the salsa song hahaha :P

My body is still fucked up but I went all out today. It feels good!

Lolz today everybody was telling me that it was very wasted cos I didn't go for Step It Up yesterday to watch and participate the bgirl battle -.-
Nah~~~ Yesterday was good enough for me  ^^
I want a good sleep..
Arghh shit!!!!!!! Fuck insomnia!!!!!! I can't take it anymore!! It's giving me the freaking headache and I feel sleepy when I have to concentrate to study!!!
FUCK THAT SHIT!

Slacking day :P

12 Feb 2011 Saturday


Omg today was a fucking slacking day  : /

Didn't go to Step It Up. Wanted to slack, train and study. And didn't want to pay the 10 bucks for the entry fee : /  Shaz told me that there was a bgirl battle, and if I were there, I'd be doing good~ Lolz haha.. Hehh~ Nah~ Train more and stay underground first. Experience wise... There're many chances waiting for me ^_^
Slacked with Joshua and Shantelle at CHAT, food, then studied with Saad at the room beside the session spot.


Today's session was effective though it was really short.
Cos Dva and 2 guys from Alley Kids (not sure about the spelling : / )  taught me a lot of things ^^
I felt good~~~~~~~
Kk gotta train and get them clean tomorrow.. Hopefully I'd still remember~ Yeah~~~

R2TF is next saturday. I'm going to watch~
If I have the gut I might join the cypher. Haha. I need some experience! So that I don't always screw up when I'm in a cypher/battle during the sessions. Lolz!


Shitttttt!!!!!!!!! Played too much! STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nah I do.. But sometimes it's hard for me to concentrate. Fuck the insomnia...  : (

Good day ^_^

11 Feb 2011 Friday

YAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JOSHYYY IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
I really really missed him soooooooooooooo freaking much omg >.<

Anyway~ We had a really good time training, chatting, playing fool : )



Shit why are there so many people who are so fucking messed up??
But there are still good people out there.

Just gotta keep to our roots and not get drifted away.
No matter how messed up our surrouding is.
We must not get affected.
Well at least try not too. Haha!
Be clear about what's going on.

Lolz..

Oh man...

: /

I hate the feeling of owing people something.
I know I owe you a lot.
I feel freaking bad inside.
I'm really sorry...
I don't taking things for granted.
I will pay back to you one day.

Need time.


-----------

Can't wait for tomorrw...

Need more rest.. Kept falling asleep during tests.. Shit...

Ain't gonna feel discouraged or demoralised when there's someone tell me that I can't do this and I can't do that..
Strive for what I want. That's what I need : )

Need more sleep and power~~

Damn.. I literally fell asleep during bio test today... Shit man... It's horrible.. I hope I wouldn't fail it..
Sigh...
Need more sleep..


Well today's session was dope!! :D
Cyphered and battled ^_^


Okie I want the power now. Gotta give myself 1.5 month to get it.
I can do it : )
DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



 

: )

Life is too short, so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly and forgive quickly.


 

Be strong stay cool.

I thought I was strong.
I pretended to be ready for the negative feelings.
I end up escaping from reality.


But now I gotta face the reality,
Be strong,
Stay cool.


And put on the smile I always had.
: )

Julian's leaving tomorrow...
Thanks for everything.
I love you, I'll miss you.
Bye...



Is it because that I've cried too much yesterday.
I wanna let it out now, but I can't.
It's so much more worse than crying.
The feeling is screwing me up in my heart.
I don't know what's going on.

Loner

I wouldn't say that it's gonna be a change..

It's that everything's going back to normal.
The feeling of insecure.


I'm out.
 
You can chase the shadows if you want to.
But all you'll do, is make them longer.
 
Today's a bad day.

: (

Everywhere is so dead.
Thanks for Chinese new year.
Lolz.

Sighhh...

: (


Lonely.

Chinese new year's eve.

Lolz I tore my hip muscle.. Pain : /  I wanted to go all out today.... Zzzzzzzz..............


Sigh......



This time I shall be determined and selfish. For my dream.
I'm sorry.
It's the future and what I want for life that counts.

Zzzzz..

Guess everybody will be busy during the Chinese new year break    : (

Please don't let it be a lonely, boring and mugging break for me : /


Jul's leaving so soon.

I miss how we were during the December holiday.

Everyone is so busy now...