Silence, please.

Can I have silence please?

I hate undesirable noise.

If you think you're right in everything you thought its right to do, you're wrong.

The week after is common test...

Give up or all out...?

''Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry.'' 

You made me feel special and then you disappeared. 

Now you're trying hard to get back here again.

I'm sorry, please fuck off. 

You fake.

Random Words

You never really knew, and I was there 
Lurking through your hair, through your thoughts
I was there, not now, not anymore,
Can’t stand the light, I dim the sunlight in the day, to feel alive
Then when I go to take a bath... later I’m not sure if I’m alone,
I’m not sure I can think, 
And I don’t know what happened to my clothes, 
Where are they, so I go out naked in the world
Yet no one can see me and I’m scared to fly,
What if the wax will melt and my feathers leave my wings
And no one would know where I fell...
Would you then find me ?


Random words from somebody I don't know.

Dream

Why am I always dreaming about things that I worried and don't make me happy?

Beeeeeep~ Saturday~ What a day~

(Jeroen's magnet-pyramid)

I haven't had session like this so hardcore like today for a long time already.


I left home early in the morning, reached Scape at 12. Lab session for two hours, then headed to Esp library.
After which, I joined Jiahao they all at SMU but too bad, we got chased out by the security guard -.-
Ooh well so I went back to Scape at night.


I feel sorry having not to talk to them much : /
Something's stopping me. I've no idea what and why.


I'm not chasing after you. You know where to find me.

That the way light bounces off your skin has nothing to do with who you are.

That smokers believe they need to die a little, just to go outside.

That art has always hated the frame you put it in and would lash out, kicking and screaming in the streets, if you gave it half a chance.

That the way lovers touch can not be communicated in words, no matter how often or how hard you try.

That your body fights your mind and your mind fights your soul and your soul fights the world, to try and figure out what you are.

That sometimes, you're just tired.

That's all.


- I wrote this for you

Yes I'm exhausted.. 

I'm not very happy. I'm kinda moody...

Maybe I should find some time to talk to friends more.

My new favourite colour has changed to dark blue..

Maybe that explains why.

---

Monday.


I went for jogging at sports complex before coming home today.
It has been a really long time. I haven't been there ever since I've picked up dancing.
It felt really great. Especially the moment I started running on the track. Really awesome.
Felt so free.


Good news. I found this spot at my house downstairs after jogging.
It's a small spot just nice for one person to break. 
It's a spot that nobody will walk pass by especially in the evening.
Just that it's kinda dirty : /
Nah it's ok, I'll find a way to clean the floor next time. Weeeehoooo XD




I fucking feel like a burden of the family. 
Fucking dying to be independent.
Not that I don't wanna work to earn money. It's that I don't have the freaking time.
You don't fucking know me so shut up.
Well I don't bother to explain either.
I'll just prove you, when I'm done with the freaking O lvl exam.
Fuck this shit. Stop spoiling my mood and compare me with my bro.


You will never know that I was going to have a happy title for the post today.

Good day : )

It was a good day, except for the mugging part. 

=P

Weian text me this morning, telling me that he's going to break at Esp.

So I brought my gears, and went to break after mugging ^^
Lolz I felt like my head was spinning after staring on the books for so damn long.

But I felt so great after breaking and sweating like a mad weehoooo!!!!!!!!! :D

After session, I went to Scape to return Zhian money, plus it's the last day Shane's here in Sg. Lolz.

I didn't know I actually miss those friends so much until I see them haha XD

I missed talking to Zach, watching Sufian bully Shane, Arino and Zhian's gayness, Xav's epic randomness and all those nonsense.

So I ended up staying there until 8pm, though I only wanted to drop by for like 15 min -.-

It was mostly because of Zach begging me to stay haha!!! Lolz this busy boy, we seldom get to meet too : (

I wonder when my wrist's gonna recover : (

Start of a brand new week.. It's gonna be hectic. 

Gimme a good one.

 

Today sucks

22/07/11 Saturday




Today sucks seriously -.-


We wanted to break at TP's sports hall, but it was locked. Usually it's open.


So we went to the airport. Our spot was taken, so we shifted to this spot which was kinda near to an office.
Somehow we had the mood and the feel to break all out.
But after awhile, this office man, along with a security guard came to talk to us.
I simply didn't wanna look at their disgusting face so I just sat there and facing the back. It was Karl who entertained them.
Lolz.
I admire how Karl could be so patient despite how ugly, disgusting and disrespectful the office man was.
If it was me, I'd just give him a fucked up face and a fucked up attitude.


Oh well after that we went up and down for like 1 hour to search for a spot, a particular spot that we went long long time ago. It was so damn tiring to walk around the airport... We did the same thing on yesterday. But yesterday was more jialat.
We finally found a way to go to that particular spot. 
Lolz, and there were 3 Mlay gals who were being assholes and wanted to find some troubles. In the end my buddy shouted 'fuck you' in their language then they kept quiet -.-


So we're not gonna be going to the airport anymore. At least for this period of time. Lolz.


Next week will be good.


Friday please come to me fast.

Huh yeah

Huh yeah you can continue to talk all those shit like whatever you want. Because I'm not around, or rather you're not around anymore.
Spread the shit all you want. 
Like I give a fuck. You disgusting son of a bitch.
That's no wonder your eyes are born like that.
You can't fucking see the things clearly can you?


Argh never mind. Sorry let me rent the anger once a while when I hear or see something.
At least I'm just saying HERE.
Not anywhere else like you.




Tomorrow's Friday!!!!!!!!!!!
YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!
My wrist hasn't recover yet... : (
YET.
Damn it....
Still gonna go all out for session tomorrow. I've no time for dance totally.
School is a bitch.

WHAT THE HECK x.x

Just realised somebody's change on facebook -.-
Omg you're a fucking bad rep!!!!
I shall smoke and burn you one day. Make you humble and stop losing our faces!
You don't feel the shame huh??
Oh my gosh...


It's only Tuesday. I haven't got enough sleep since last Friday...
I look like a panda : (
Don't even have energy to toprock or do something light.
So damn lazy...


There are many tests next week. Common test is also coming really soon...
Why is my life so hectic?


It was O lvl Chinese Listening this afternoon. We had a break in between after school.
So I decided to go to SP instead of going to Clementi mall cos I bet there were a lot of people wandering around.
Haha it was damn random.
Met up with Jason at SP, we haven't really talked to damn long. Too bad we didn't really have much time to catch up cos he had to go for lessons.


Haiz.... Always miss talking and catching up with friends during weekdays.
Friday!!!! PLEASE! : (

Harry Potter!!!

I wish I can one day be like him. Born, my all time favorite.




Watched Harry Potter today after school. It's really dope! But hehh, never ever go to Shaws again! The seat sucks!!!!!!!!!! : (




I hope I can see him around again really soon.
I wanna talk to him more. 
But I've gotta wait damn long...
Stop guessing. I know who he is.
You won't know. None of your business here.

Free Style Session SEA

Yeah I went to watch FSS eventually...
I was on the way to Esp library, then Andre messaged me 'Rie.. Really not going ahh? I'm joining with Sufian and Predicx'...
Then I was like OH MY GOSH!!! I should go!!!!!!!!


So after staying at the library for awhile, I went all the way to Pasir Ris again. 
Yea it was another great day!


Too bad I didn't stay throughout. But I'm so happy to see that Andre's team has gone through the first round. Hopefully they can go further.


When we were on the stage watching the battles at the side, we noticed this girl, or rather this slut, had got two guys around her. One of them was lying on her breast while the other one was hugging her from her back, touching her thighs and kissing her neck blah blah...
It was so fucking gross. We were so fucking disturbed and disgusted.
Oii slut, don't degrade yourself. Go and fucking get a life.


Ahah oh yeah!! I was the ''guardian of Shane'' for the day =P 
I signed the form for him to register.


Haizzz~~~ Train hard study hard.
Why is the life so hard?


I feel like participating a battle soon.
But I gonna upgrade myself first.
Power!!!!!
My wrist gonna recover fast! It's fucking wasting my time!

BOTY SG 16/07/11

Saturday!!! BOTY all the way at White Sands!


Met up with Andre and Karl for lunch, and chilled with a few friends before the start of the event.


I couldn't join.. Cos I can't do any freeze at this moment because of the fucked up wrist : (
There was bgirl 1 on 1 battle. Lolz. The top two got to battle Bgirl MisLee.

Yup so this is what I did. Standing in front of the stage, right beside the speaker, taking videos : /


There was one ''Bboy Ray''...
Everybody went ''what the fuck is that''.
I thought I got sabo by somebody...
Ended up there WAS somebody else who walked up to the stage.
I got fucking pissed off.
Even all the bboys took a look at my frustrated face with the ''what's happening'' look.
Seriously man!!! This shit spoilt my mood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


The interesting is, I posted this status on facebook,''I am the ONLY RAY here!''. 
Then one guy commented, telling me that it was him blah blah and the MC got his name pronounced wrongly blah blah and shit.
FINE!!!
Anyway this guy's gonna change his streetname. Good then!
Luckily he showed up. Or else the next time I see him, Imma call him out and smoke his ass.
No offence.
But I was really fucking pissed.

Big Toe and I :D

Anyway talking about my name...
I met Vanessa today weeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I haven't talked to her for sooooooooooo freaking long! ><
She couldn't recognize me by my new hairstyle, oh well like almost everybody else -.-
She told me bboys from her sch call me ''Ranie'' or something like this cos they don't know how to pronounce ''Rie''. Hahahaha!! That nickname sounds cute. 


Lolz there were many people who couldn't recognize me today. They just walked pass me until I shouted their names loud and clear.
Even so they stunned a bit, then gave me the surprised look @.@
Everybody said that I look good heehee!!! ^^  YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
Hahaha!!! It feels so awesome and great to be with this new look. I feel like I'm totally a different person now.
New look new start : )


I bought a headspin beanie there at BOTY. Damn cheap!! 20 buck only ^^

Bboy Wings and Bgirl Ray

After BOTY, Andre, his gf Janice, Karl, Matthias, Cravis, Xavier, Shin and I went to chill at the airport.
All of us, except Andre and Janice, went to play the slide there AHHAHA!!
Crazy peeps!


Not gonna go Free Style Session tomorrow... Too tired and I needa have time to do something else.


It was a great day.


Love it <3


(Walao broken English sia =.='' I'm damn tired)

YEAH!!! Shor hair baby!!!!!!!! XD

Jang jang~~~~~
There you go, my new hairstyle XD

WEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! I feel so cool, so great, so awesome now HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!
I haven't had a big change of hairstyle for almost ten years.
I look good right? Heehee =P
Hmmm... Just needa wait for it to grow a lil longer ^^


Karl had to leave early today, so I came home early cos I had totally no more cash with me -.-
Yeah that's why I cut my hair today instead of tomorrow morning.
My parents like my new hairstyle. My brother keeps on giving me the ''asshole'' look, haha!! He says that he's not used to it =P
Tomorrow is BOTY. I wonder how my friends will react.
Hehh hehh~~~


I'm feeling so great!!!!!!!!! XD
Can't wait for tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!




Sunday is Free Style Session...
Sigh why is it on bloody Sunday??? : (
Sunday is my study and ''prepare-for-Monday'' day...
Zzz : /


BOTY... Tomorrow will be the last time my buddy and I appear.


Hope tomorrow will be a great day : )
<3

Tomorrow.....?

My buddy's leaving early for tomorrow's session :S


I can't be too dependent yeah.
I needa keep reminding myself this.


Good luck to me... For the math test tomorrow.


Okie I've decided to cut my hair on Saturday morning already XD
Can't wait for a new change woohoo~




One more opportunity.
I shall no let go any.

Short hair??

                                              (Bored during the damn school)

I've been wanting to cut my hair short, really short for a long time already.
I'm so fucking sick of the damn sch rule that we're required to tie plaits.
Fuck it!!!!
NOW I'VE DECIDED TO CUT IT ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway it's time for me to change a hairstyle =P
Oh my gosh, and Imma going to watch BOTY right after the haircut. 
God bless me, make it a really dope, awesome and nice one!!!!!
Hehhh I don't know..... : /  Should I really cut?
=.=''


Haha today after school, I went to LOT 1 with my classmate Yingsuan.
Wow.

We went to Cotton On, bought these 2 accessories at 1 buck each.

Oh well ignore the words written on my wrist. I was bored at class.

By the way it's a sentence from a song that stuck in my head.

And ice-cream at MOF XD

Anyway, the main reason we went to Lot 1 was because that I wanted to by eyeliner from SaSa.

While waiting for me, Yingsuan put a lot of different colours of eyeshadows on her hand and started fooling around.

It was fun haha.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't wait for BOTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>.<

And Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^_^

On a live show.

Yup so I went to Mediacrop with some guys from Break Force Crew to perform with this rap group called Komrade.


I didn't expect it to be a Malay show, Called ''Jus!'' on Suria. So I couldn't understand what the show was talking about : /

Syafiq didn't go because of his work, so it was this old gen' BFC guy, Wan who brought me and the rest along to the Mediacrop.
Those guys are friendly : )
Being assholes, we prank called Syafiq twice. Once by Wan on the way in the bus, waking Syafiq up in the middle of his sleep and lied that I back out last minute due to school. His voice sounded zombie, and obviously he went back to sleep after hanging up the phone cos he didn't call me.
So, we made the second call to Mr Syafiq. This time was by me.
I asked if he just woke up, cos he really did sound zombie -.-  He asked me where and what was I doing, then I accidentally said something like ''they all are sitting here too''.
Oppz : /
So I passed the phone to Ben, he started to talk all sorts of non-sense to Syafiq HAHAHA!!!
After that I mesagged him, told him that it was a prank etc, then he replied ''ass sia you all''.
Haha!! Lolz!
It's like my first time doing this nonsense prank call. It was damn fun.
Well, the waiting time was quite long so we were quite bored.

                                                                 (Before make-up)


Wan asked me to wear their crew shirt...
Cos this show was supposed to be ''Komrade ft. BFC''.
Well zz I didn't know that also.

                                 (Outside Studio 4 where we trained the routine and had our dinner on the floor)


Oh yeah and we had packed food for dinner too. It was Malay food... Not the ones I've eaten before...
Ehh I couldn't really take the food, so Ben ate my food instead.
Haha~ 

                                                                    (After make-up)


So talking about the show...
I danced with Barney and Wan. A sweet and short routine plus a short individual routine then the back ground haha!
We rehearsed for many times before a long break till the actual one.
And... I crashed for the actual one : (  The airchair... My wirst hasn't recovered yet... Footwork chocked a lil : /
The make-up I wore was........ Scary. It was a very thick make-up. But I liked the my eye make-up haha!! =P


I took cab home after everything. Reached home around 10 30/11. I spent half an hour to remove my make-up but I failed to do so.
I woke up this morning looking like a panda, not because of eye bags but because of incompletely removed eyeliners -.-
Haha, it was my first time putting so much make-up XD


It was a great and fun exposure. I'm so lucky to get this chance : )
Thanks Syafiq, and also the BFC guys that went yesterday and Komrade.


Hehh anyway I won't rush into things : )
  

I need more time.

24 hours a day is definitely not enough.


Tomorrow is the shooting. I don't know how is it gonna go...
I'm kinda lost too : /
Hopefully everything can go smoothly and end early... 
Damn it... My wrist hasn't recovered yet... I can't freeze....
: (
Sighh...


Heehee my new kicks, Adidas Gazelle have arrived!!!
Finally!!!!!!!
Still with Andre though ><


I can't wait for BOTY this Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not participating don't get me wrong...
Cos...
I don't get a chance to meet my dear friends.
So yeah, I'll be able to meet them on Saturday...
After that.... I've no idea when will be the next time.

Good luck to me, for tomorrow.

Why?

My dear,
Why are you getting yourself into these troubles because of me?
Why??


I know you stand up for your friends, I like you cos I know you're really my good friend.
But why did you go to this extend?


I feel guilty and bad somehow, for some reasons which I can't really explain.

I just don't wanna see you getting into some troubles, just because of me... For so many times...

I will leave you alone, for the sake of both of us.

Hopefully you'll be on the right path and be good.

I'll miss all the nonsense we had when we fool around together.

I'm really sorry...

I'll be back when I'm fully ready.

Now I'm gone, to somewhere else.

 

Emotional?

I've being strangely emotional over these few days.
I'm again, back to piano, listen to the emotional and nostalgic songs that I refused to listen in the past, I've been daydreaming about going the scene going back to Japan, and visualizing the days when I was in China.
Strange. Very strange. This is the me last time. I'm not like that now.


My dear bruh has gone back to Australia. 
Another... Around half a year more.




She was cold as a winter blizzard that clings to your skin even after you’ve warmed yourself in front of the fire. She was warm as a summer heat wave that seemed to last a whole season without ever losing its warmth. She was fire and ice. She was all that there was to be in life and then some more. She was the reigning sun and the majesty of a moon, a split second of a nanosecond and an infinity. She was always present, lingering still, and then she was never there. She was a beautiful wrath of passion and overwhelming possibilities. Try as hard as you might, you couldn't tame her. She was like the waves on a sea, rolling in, rolling out, an unstoppable force that was gentle as a whisper and terrifying as a volcano begging to erupt. She was you. She was me.
- I think I should have fun away

Feel like this week is passing by quite fast.
2 more days to Friday ^^
Hmm, I doubt I can dance on Friday : /




Ehh you bitch, get a life.

......

Today was supposed to be a perfect session to break.
Fuck the injury.


Okay time to get back to the track.

Injury-prone : (

03 July 2011  Sunday




So what the hell is wrong with me? -.-
This morning I woke up by the pain of my left wrist. I don't know why cos I didn't really do much yesterday.


This afternoon I went to Scape for session. Wow my feel suddenly came back. Maybe it's because there wasn't much people there.
However later part, we moved to upstairs as downstairs was getting more people and it was distracting.
I guess I was tired, plus right wrist was still recovering from the injury I got on Friday from roll back air chair. I busted it from hoping to air chair this time...
This time is serious... I stayed stagnant for awhile cos it was too pain to get up.
Now I can't move my right hand at all. Not even my fingers and they are swollen...
God damn it. I'm a right-hander. How am I going study, as in writing?
: (
Why am I getting injuries so easily???????!!!!!!!!!


Dinner at Burger King with Khai, Sufian, Xav, Karl, Shane and Jiwari was AWESOME!!
We played this game, which is not laughing no matter what's happening.
So we all tried hard to stay calm. We couldn't help but laughing at Jap and Xav's stupid faces!
Haha I think I was the biggest losers. I was damn high so I just couldn't stop laughing. Well actually everyone was damn high today. Before leaving Scape, the boys did some funny moves and fooled around. I couldn't join them cos of my wrist : /
Anyway, it feels like I haven't been laughing and having crazy and mad fun like this for quite some time already. It feels great :D


Tomorrow is probably the last day seeing Chinky before he going back to Australia.
For these few days while he's here, I had tried my best to spend time with him like going for session when I seriously have no mood for it, or giving up going to have sessions somewhere else just because of him.
Anyway, after he's back, I'm gonna be back to normal. Imma spend more time to study and go to break somewhere I wanna go.
This time round our clique didn't hang out like what we did a few months ago. I feel a lil bit pity. But things change. We all are much busier than we used to be. Lolz.


Hopefully my wrist can recover really fast. I can't live like this.
It really sucks to be able to use only one hand.

Movie and chill~

Transformers with Sufian, Xav, Khai, Jonah and Zhian.
Lolz today we spent $14 per ticket for Transformers 3D at Cathy zz...
It's a freaking Saturday and some people were late. So we got the worst seats. Ehh no, to be exact, I was the saddest one. I got the worst seat. First row, right at the corner -.-  I had a stiff neck for the whole entire hour after the movie.
Two miracles today. Xav, who always takes forever to reach somewhere reached Dhoby first at 1pm sharp! Second miracle is that Sufian, who's always one of the early ones, came the latest. Haha!
Hmm I think Green Lantern was nicer than Transformers... I nearly fell asleep while trying hard to stare at the screen from the very corner today : /


I've been having headache for the whole night...
These few days really sucks. 


There's one 3 on 3 battle, 18 and under coming up next week.
Shane's encouraging me to join.
But nah...
It's a good opportunity and experience. But I really have no heart for any battle or cypher now.


Shanyang will be finally free on Monday. Hopefully we can meet up.
There are some good friends that I wanna meet up and have a good talk with.
But why is everybody so fucking busy?

Oh, Friday

01 July 2011 Friday




It's already July.


I guess I'm tired. 
Slacked throughout the whole session today.
Or maybe it's really time for me to change the session spot.
I wanted to go somewhere else today, but because of my bro, I went to Scape. Lolz..
He's leaving soon.
Again.


My knee is fucked up. Like seriously.
After the joint shifted at the airport like two weeks ago, it's getting worse.
Fucked up.


Gonna watch Transformers with my bboy buddies tomorrow.
Lighten up my mood, get hyper, chill and relax.


By the way, I just wanna say this:-
So the shit-creator is eating his own shit now. Nice. I bet it's tasty for you, just you. You deserve it. You created it, just for yourself to eat it back one day. Swallow what you vomited to stink people you fucker.
I didn't and never make noise all along. I'm just here to let it out.
Anyway you can never learn. It's in your blood. You can never change.
Fuck off, no one's gonna miss you. Your leaving's not gonna make any difference but letting us to have more space, less hating, less bullshit, and more peace.


Crazy hectic and exhausting crap.
Gotta call it a night now.