I wouldn't change a thing.
Tomorrow however, is a new day.
I tried so hard after they left to make my heart hard. And now all my hard work is undone.
It's just much easier to tear down, than to build up.
Sometimes when I stare at the migarette in my hand, beg it to cease the moments of sadness and loneliness.
If only the moments of silence and happiness could be with me all I want.
Although the feelings that I want to express flow out,
they can't be easily put into words.
The naked heart is wandering, having nowhere to go.
And it is setting sharp thorns around,
for fear of being hurt and touched.
Kinda wasted today in a way that I didn't study haha~~~
Jul accompanied to get the 2 piercings back with me today, he said that he's going to get my 5th one with me : ) After that I slacked and chilled at Scape for the whole day.
Yesterday was too hardcore, no mood to study, sleepy.. Zzzzz.......
But really had fun chatting with friends : ) Pure chilling out day.
Came back home with Matthias they all. Haha we laughed so much on the way!
Mat was kinda 'high', hmm well slightly drunk though he didn't think so :P Plus the cute lil Fir ^_^
I think you won't know how it feels like when you're totally left out in a conversation when you want someone to talk to you or you want to talk to someone and the person is busying talking crap with another person.
You're always in the centre.
You're never left out.
28 Jan 2011 Friday
Danced from around 3pm to 10 30 today.
All out all the way I felt damn G and high ^^
Lolz I squeezed my sweat out of the shirt just now.. Eww...
Learnt quite a lot of things from Syafiq today. And he drilled me the spinning-around-up-and-down for like 10 min, I got so freaking dizzy >.< But the set is really dope. Gotta train on it and get it done. It's so cool I love it! :P
Heh but it's really hard to balance Zzzzz... : / I nearly kissed a passerby's ass when I recovered from the flip. Haha, couldn't stand still.
We had a cypher before leaving. I was really exhausted so my toprock kinda 'drunk' and kept crashing footwork -.- Lolz and Dva found it funny and started to imitate me hahaha!
Deep came today!!!!!!! Omg I've not seen her for suuuuuuch a loooooong time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<
The moment we saw each other, we ran, screamed and hugged. HAHAHAHA!!! I think the guys who were there were thinking like what the heck is going on :P
Blehhhh we're girls, and it's not the first time for me hahaha!
I love today, and the feeling I got : )
♥
The things are changing.
When I listen to the songs I used to listen to, which fond memories were all around,
I felt the warmth and pain.
What on earth have I lost as I grew old ?
What on earth is this that's increasing as I'm growing old ?
Even this moment when I think like this is turning into the past, too.
I'm walking on today, with the scar in my heart,
Looking at your back as a guidepost to live.
It's over, or it's going to over.
Yesterday is dead.
I'm not gonna miss.
That song I keep playing is nothing but a photograph I look at with my ears.
There's nothing scary about choice. Scary is when you don't have choice.
Sometimes I do something simply to prove you wrong about me.
Or I will just fuck off.
It's getting more hampered by a certain distance inbetween.
Yay!!!
Today's session was so fun and great!!!!!!! :D
I feel so high and happy now heehee :P
Backache zzzzz... What affected me more from doing footwork was the ankle. I thought it was recovered. But the pain came back to me after the small cypher when the Big Toe LionT was there damn..
Yeah so didn't do much footwork but toprock today.
It was still very fun haha!!!
Lolz!!! Jonah and Karl kept playing their old school beats.
Ehh.. I missed Jul's funky beats : /
But not bad. I got to play mine~~~
Got something new today : )
Tomorrow gotta go all out and work on footwork more. I've seriously not been training footwork for quite a long time. Shit... I don't wanna get rusty >.<
Gotta study hard and manage the time well in order to balance the school work and bboying.
Yeah I can do it ^_^
Gambatte!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shit I'm so god damn tired...
22 Jan 2011 Saturday
I was so happy to see the 2 cute boys Kamarul, Luqman and FEC guys Shaun, Duckie and Hasty today!
I've not seen them for months >.<
Sighh.. I miss those days in Esp.. Lolz.....
Man... I feel people nowadays are so fucked up and messed up.
Everything is so risky and dramatic.
Lmao.
