These few weeks~

My sweet 18th.

My birthday this year is memorable. Celebrated it with Shalom, Ivan, Matthias, Agnes, Vicky, Kamarul, Shane, Jonah and Jaron at Vivo and Sentosa : )  ♥
Shalom, Matt, Agnes and Vicky planned a surprise for me haha! Agnes told me she wasn't coming but she came. Shalom to, she came with her home-made chocolate banana cake XD   And I literally melted!
However, however, my plan to Sentosa beach failed x_x  It was raining heavily for the whole freaking day. Matt asked me why didn't I check weather forecast. I said I checked. 
''Then?'
''It says raining!!''
Silence for a second, and everyone burst out laughing -.-  And then I realised how dumb I was zzzz... Baik ah, but I just wanted to try my luck, you know, weather forecast isn't accurate all the time : /
At night we went back to Vivo, had dinner, and I watched Alvin and Chipmunks with Agnes and Vicky =P Cos I didn't wanna go back home with the tipsy drunk boy shhhhhh!!! The movie is DAMN CUTE!!!!!!!!!! Omg worth watching man!!!!!!!!!!
So glad to have friends like them. Lots of ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!!!!!!! : )

OH YEAH!!! On 17th, Saturday, I went Johor Baru to join a jam called BREAK2B. I joined with Matt. Tagged along with RF together with him, Sufian, Shane and Khai.
Went up to top 16. My performance was bad, and I panicked like hell -.- But it was really a good experience gained : )
Oh yeah yeah I went there without telling my parents HEEHEE!




I'm officially broke. Too much outings and shopping recently : / But who cares!! Only a few more days of complete freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK SCHOOL!!!!!!! 
Yeah I won't let school fuck me up.
I just can't imagine how suck I'll be next year after O level. Oh I'm referring to bboying~




This Christmas... Very fucking boring. Spent my day at Natash Studio for the Christmas Party. Bored to the max.

This holiday I got closer to Agnes, Vicky and Jocelyn. They're my sisters now heehee ^^  And Shalom has become my bestie! We're so damn close that we can talk about seriously EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!! Finally I've a bunch of close girl friends. I'm feeling me secured now  : )


Friends come and go. This December holiday is so damn different from last year's one. 
Mix around with the right ones. Ture friends.


Zzzzzz... Tomorrow I've got to go for lunch with that 'I'M-FUCKING-GORGEOUS-BITCH'. Fml.............................................................................................  _|_




Anyway just had a new hair cut yesterday... Now my right is boy, my left is gal : /  So not me..



YEAH I'M FUCKING LEGAL NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BITCH!

I miss here.

I miss my blog.


10th December, I performed with these few bgirls at Zouk : )  It's my first time entering a club and performing with bgirls! Haha I was super high. And it was really awesome!


The feeling of breaking with GIRLS is so freaking different!!!!! I loved it! Haha.
Before the 4 rehearsals we had together, I wasn't close to them(not referring to Agnes and Vicky), and didn't even know some of them. But I found out that actually they're really god damn friendly and approachable!!!!!!! Like sisters. 
And YES for some reasons, they're really trustworthy and I freaking can tell them everything.
Hopefully I can break with them more : )
And... If really possible... We shall do that girls!
Haha, the bgirls' power we got!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


boty.




Just busted my left elbow ligament... I'm dying to train flare... Gee.. Now I can't even to footwork properly :
(
Recover soon please!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Self-reminder: Don't trust people easily, especially those immature ones.




The dream last night has been stuck in my head for the whole day... I wonder, is it another good sign.
It was.. Sweet. And I felt that. So. Real. How I wish it's not a dream, and it happened in reality.



I feel that this holiday is finishing really fast... Time really flies when we're enjoying and having fun.
I've already started to be worried for next year.



I need a safer and a circle that can really back me up and give me the sense of secure. So after this week... I shall find a way to stick with you.

Chinky bro's coming back in 2 days time : )




And guess what, I feel that mugging is kinda fun now ^^ YAY! This makes me happy!!!!!!!!

What a day!

25 Nov2011 Friday

Put aside all the guailan crap I got this morning~




I brought Jonny to walk around and chill out cos my bro had to study for his supplementary exam.. 
It was pretty cool!! : )  We had lots of fun chatting, and I got to know how's the culture there back there in Tasmania, and heehee, talking about Chinky etc =P  Shh!!


After that we met Saad and Fareed to go for dinner.

Saad brought us to eat this Arab food. Haha it's great! But... We realised that we forgot to pay for it after reaching Clark Quay -.-

They wanted to go club, Saad asked me if I wanna go cos he can get us into guest list so I won't have to show my IC. But hehh~ Not into this kinda shit. I followed them anyway cos we were going for shisha~

Hehh but Saad... He left 3 of us waiting like some idiots while he went around to get friends from here and there -_-  We got quite annoyed, it's purely wasting of our time man -.-  Zzz, so we called him piece of shit. HAHA!

In the end I decided to leave.. I see no point wasting time to sit with those party animals lolololol~ 

Jonny is going back tomorrow.. Hope I'll have chance to see him again. I wanna go Australia!!!!!!!!!! ><

I dropped by at Natasha Studio before going back home. Met Jocelyn there, chatted for hours hahaha! We had sooooooooooooooo hell lot of fun gossiping weehooo!!! This kinda chat, you can never expect to have with boys!!!!!!!!

ZZZ I'm so tired as fuck... Tomorrow all out mugging.

Fuck chemistry fuck exams! 

I hope both my bro and I will be able to pass our supplementary exams..

Nights.

NEW START!

Haha yeah I just had a haircut. And I love it : )

Anyway, yeah I just realized something a few days ago that's really freaking seriously important for my life.. All thanks to my sch boys, especially Yx and Jm.. You know, I've been always mixing around with those friends.. Hmm.. Whom don't really study much? And always just break, break, and break.I'm not being disrespectful my dears~


I mean I kinda lost myself.. After started dancing.. Heh should I use that word badly? Cos I think I was badly influenced. All I wanted to do is dance dance and dance all day long and dance whenever I want to. And I neglected other things that are also, or more important to me. I thought it was nothing wrong, I thought it was normal. Everyone just say it's ok, just break anyway you can't study 24/7, or never mind, cos even if you study a lot, do you think your result will get really really good?
...
Brain wash? Bad influence or I just totally lost myself?


It's ok cos it's not too late. It's not late at all. I can't describe how thankful I am to have y'all here with me. I'm back to the right track. No more hardcore bboying non-stop all day every day. 
And yeah I feel so damn lucky : )






Hey I've got something more important for my life to do, I deserve much better, I'll work my ass off for a better future not to break my ass off and get lost in future. 
I don't need fame, I don't need reputation, I don't needa be a famous bgirl that everyone talks about, I don't needa be the top bgirl.
I'm just gonna be myself.
Oh G... Now that the motivation for my bgirl life has gone -.-
HELL NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!! 


Argh fuck I'm confused...


Nah I'll never quit bboying. It's still gonna be my passion forever. 


It's ok I believe I'll be better soon yeah.. I've got all those friends around..
: )

And here are some photos from graduation night that day haha. 
From the bottom of my heart. 
Thank you <3

So Imma really work my ass off right now!
YEAH BABY LET'S GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grad night performance.. First Time!!

21 Nov 2011  Monday




We performed for Graduation Night  ^^
Yi Xiang, Jun Meng, NL and Xianwang.
It was good, but it wasn't our best.
However we actually made it in such a short period of time, it's really amazing cos it's the first ever time I being the so-called choreographer and instructor hahaha =P
And I'm so so so proud of Yx and Jm, especially Jm who got perfect windmill in freaking 2 days!!!!!!!!! What the hell damn it I gonna get it too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ><


I was the most nervous one haha, my hands were quivering... Cos I was afraid of somebody guai lan me :s


Anyway, it was a blast, a good experience and a great start : )
We're planning for another one. Gonna start working on that next week after my supplementary exam zzzzzz : (
Shhhhh...


Oh yeah and we had great time lepak-ing heeheehee!!! Especially our cam whore with Xiancheng being our Mr Photographer =P 
^_^
Waiting for our dope photos to be uploaded now YAY!!!!!!!!!! ^^






K anyway.. Although I don't think yall will see what I'm gonna say...
I really appreciate and glad to get to know yall closer and to bond with yall.
And I was really touched when you told me that I'm yall mentor and when I see yall improving so fast.. Even faster than me.
I thought about it sometimes.. Hanging out with them really really gives me the motivation and the drive to study.. My other friends don't.. In fact not that I'm blaming them, I've actually kinda badly influenced to slack too much.
On top of that, your rapid improvement for bboyning also makes me wanna improve more.
And I've really learnt a lot after having this rare chance to be the instructor and choreographer.


A big thanks man, Yx and Jm : )




Oh yeah next week is the supplementary exam... Fml.. I haven't even touched anything and I've got so much to catch up...
I seriously gonna mug my ass off from tomorrow onwards... 
Haha Yx said if I were to fail chemistry again he'll kill me -.-
Ok I shall not disappoint myself and my friends. 
I've no freaking confidence, BUT I'M SO GONNA MUG MY ASS OFF AND GIVE MY VERY BEST!!!!!!!!!!
OIIIIIIIII CHEM AND GEOG PAPER, WATCH OUT, I'M GONNA FREAKING FUCK YOU UP AND SMOKE AND GET YOU BURNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
COME ON I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


After the supplementary papers, we'll start to prepare for the next performance weeeeee!!!!!!! :D




Hmm, but this Friday I'll be going to Scape... I, no we really really hope that we can peace with one another..
I'll try my best haha~


Okie, jia ou for everything in my life!!!!!!!!! ^_^

11/11/11

It has been a tiring day...
Went to Scape with Yixiang and Junmeng they all. Spent most of the time teaching. Didn't train on my things and didn't get anything new..
But seeing them learning, improving and progressing so fast makes me feel so good  : )


We gotta show are performance on Tuesday to Mr Mun... Sigh so stressed up.




Feeling a bit down huh I don't know why. 
It's been so tiring recently. Physically and mentally.


And for the first time, the beef between s4s and I is bothering so much. Probably cos of Yx. 
Haiz so screwed up..


Anyway something dumb happened today =.=''
Chuck took out his electronic cigarette to show us. I thought it was a toy so I just put it into my mouth and tried sucking it.
However it was very hard to suck -.-  So I took a deep deep breathe and then took it out. 
And yeah, I got chocked by the smoke and coughed -.-
Everyone just started to laugh and dis and say all kinds of bullshit, joked around that I took my first puff of smoke, I'm addicted blah blah blah =_=''
Lolololol, IT REALLY LOOKED LIKE A TOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it has battery life! Charged by using USB!!!!! WHAT THE HECK!!!!!
And the smoke was so damn horrible! Made my throat suffer.
Geeeeeeezzzzzzzz... I still can't believe it... It really just looks like a cheap plastic toy. Hmmmmmm. Contains nicotine -.-






Gonna get the choreo synced by Sunday...
Gonna get my solo choreo done by tonight before I sleep...


Hopefully I won't see the person that I don't wanna meet tomorrow at Scape so I can focus on teaching and breaking.


It's gonna be hardcore and tiring.
But we gonna make it, and it'll be a great one.


: )

Fcuk you up, Like a boy

Wish we could switch up the roles and I could be that
Tell you I love you but when you call, I never get back


If I was always gone, hit the sun getting home
Told you I was with my crew when I knew it wasn?t true
If I act like you, walked a mile off in your shoes
Messing with your head again, dose of your own medicine


What if I had a thing on the side, made you cry
Would the rules change up or would they still apply if I played you like a toy?
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy.''

Stronger

Lolz.


I just saw something that nearly break my heart.


Fuck care : )


Cos I'm stronger and can be stronger.


Fuck ya bitch! 

北海度の友達

So yup hosted these 2 boys Saito Kai and Takamiya Shogo from Hokkaido for these 2 days.
Weixin hosted Yamakawa Moeko and Matsumura Manami.

Thanks for giving me such a wonderful memory. 

Haha, didn't expect that my broken Japanese can still work so well that the two home gals and I have become friends : )

I was going to tear when we said goodbye this morning..

:'(

Sighh...

This manga is drawn by Saito last night. He spent 4-5 hours to finish it. Didn't even sleep.

I'm waiting for the gals to write letter to me. Can't wait...

Too hell lot of stories to be written here.

Just hope that one day I'll get to meet them. 

It feels so lonely and empty after these busy but fun and crazy 2 days.

ほんとに楽しいかた。

It feels so fucking sad now.

Life is a bitch.

Lololol!!! Weee!

Lolololz! I think my hyper mode is back -.-
I feel damn good : )


I think it's cos of the coming-soon holiday!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!
And this coming weekend, which I'm going to host 2 Japaneses and bring them around to some places heehee, which I also wanna go and have fun =P ,
And the come-back of my motivation for breaking,
And... him! Haha!


Hehhyaaa~


I like that.






Anyway, seriously, Imma working my ass off in this holiday. Mug and break HARD!

I'M BACK!!

Yeah the old real me is back!!!
Hmm to be exact, it's my motivation for breaking is back =P


All thanks to Raw To The Floor yesterday haha!!


Woo yay I haven't had such a hyper, fun, and productive session for so damn long!!!!!
Had this cool and good session with Syafiq, Kamarul, Sufian and Jiwari ^^


And I was so hyper even without music.
Love this feeling sooooooooo much!!! <3


Now I realise that actually we can dance without music as long as we're hyper BUT, not when other dancers or the stupid shufflers around blasting their own music -.-


Can't wait for the next dope session.


: )




And I can't wait till the day I'm finally ready to battle!!!!!!

Higher

At the rooftop of Orchard Central with my gal Shalom for the first time.

Haha I didn't know I can actually access the rooftop.

I love this place.

When you can't escape to a further place, then go to a higher place.

Thankful

29/10/11 Saturday

I think I'm god damn lucky to meet you, though we are not close yet and we don't really have the time to get closer yet.


I'm thankful that you can accompany me when walking while others are chatting and I'm out of the conversation.
I'm thankful that you do actually care about me.
I'm thankful for that message.
I'm thankful for your listening.
And I'm thankful for the smile and the expression you had in your eyes when we said bye.


: )


Oh yeah and I'm happy to hear that long hair doesn't match me for the first time in my life, and that my current hair style suits me  =P
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It was R2TF hood vs hoos today. It was really awesome, sick, exciting, incredible, dope and high.
We're so so so so happy that our oldest and baddest Syafiq won this together with his partner Farhan.
^^




Kamarul, Jonah and I had a small talk today, regarding breaking and our life.
Yeah it's not that we can't live without it, but breaking is what that makes the life to be more colourful.
And Imma achieve my aim next year.


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Cos of today's fucked up incident, lots of thoughts are running through my mind now.
I wonder when can I not suffer from this kinda shit and really settle down.
Fuck that shit.




And that everything's so unstable now.




Like, a very very very very good friend of mine has left me. He's with some other new friends now.


See, don't ever depend or rely on somebody too much. The more I do, the more I fall.
What you don't know is, I felt like shit that day. I'm still smiling, cos I'd rather not talk about it.
 : )


Friends come and go. When can I truly learn that?


I don't know if I really just wanna let it go.
He's the one who helped me really get serious with breaking, the first ever big improvement I had was really because of his help.
He's my biggest inspiration, my motivation, my teacher, my support, my listener.
My mentor.
You don't know how fucking happy it is to break with you, to hand out with you, to have lots and lots of nonsense with you, like last time when Wei was still with us.


Breaking is getting boring day by day.
I'm just trying very hard cos I have to achieve the aim.


But still thanks for everything.


I wouldn't change a thing.




I'm alone. Cos I'm a stupid dumb who doesn't know how to talk.

桜

You gave me hope when I was down. Though you might not be real.

I'm definitely benefited. I just learnt so much after watching it again after 6 years.

カードキャプターさくら、

ほんとにありがと！

だから、心配しないで。それわ大丈夫。

りえができるので。

絶対に、できる。

絶対に、大丈夫。

夜の歌

夜の空に瞬く 遠い金の星
ゆうべ夢で見あげた 小鳥と同じ色
眠れぬ夜に
ひとりうたう歌
渡る風と一緒に
想いをのせてとぶよ
夜の空に輝く 遠い銀の月
ゆうべ夢で咲いてた 野ばらと同じ色
優しい夜に
ひとりうたう歌
明日は君とうたおう
夢の翼にのって

You won't know how much this song means to me, how much it tears my heart apart and how much it reminds me of the past.

And, how much encouragement and comfort it gives me.

It sucks

You know how fucking sucks it is when all the hard work doesn't pay off.
It isn't the first time.


Always, right? Kind of.


It's so fucking discouraging. 


But I can't give up.
And I can't be down.


Fuck that shit, nothing's gonna wack me down.

All out with 0 stamina

I went all out with 0 stamina and no lunch and dinner. Lol yea and I only remembered that on the way home -.-


Started dancing around 2 and cooled down around 930pm.
My stamina was gone, so I had to keep on pushing myself towards the end. Actually nah, it was Alex who pushed me for power training when I was about to die : /


Sigh, even Xav could see that my footwork has become slower....... =.=''


Anyway, yeah talking about Xav, we 2 got injured at the same time. He tore his wrist's tendon, while I had a spot on my left elbow swelling instantly after doing windmill, with burning sensation inside. It was damn freaking pain.
Then Jap and I think it was Karl came to ask what happened, then I showed them. Jiwari said that it might be a fracture, so I better go for an x-ray : (
Damn it don't spoil my holiday!! 
Yea I'm putting ice on it now..
Oh yeah and this unknown dope Black bboy passed me his medicine for me to apply : )


So since I was still in pain, I went upstairs to find Yixiang they all.
Then after awhile the swell started to change colour arghhhhhh.
It's green and purple now.


Oh yea teaching Yixiang they all was fun. It's tiring, but the sense of achievement is there when I see them progressing, improving, getting a move done, showing interest in bboying and showing that they're willing to learn : )
And chatting with them is also fun too. I really enjoyed it. I know you won't see it, but thanks guys ^^
In the middle Shane and Xav came up to disturb me, after awhile they started to teach them too.
: )
Furthermore teaching the beginners can also train my foundation since I hardly train it nowadays heehee.

SHORT!

I just had a haircut today, really damn short. 

Yeah then I went breaking after that after rusting for 1 month, my friends were like, err, I miss how you looked in long hair.

: /

Whatever, hair grow faster! And let's get used to my new hairstyle faster too =P

Exam's going to over.

Not breaking for one month is seriously no joke. Maybe cos I haven't even been moving my body too.

Today my moves were really... Sucks. And I felt so damn weird too. Like my muscles and body are so no used to it.

It'll get better  : )

Just can't wait for Friday.

If only my parents can be supportive and encouraging...

For everything.

 

Mug and mug and mug... Getting rusty.

Yesterday was most epic. Woke up at 715am and went all the way to Starbucks @ Holland Village to study... Stayed there for exactly 8 hours. It was crazy.
After that, I went all the way to the MacDonald's at Khatib to study with Shalom -.-
Fml.
But fucking productive.

(@Starbucks, wrote by Yingsuan my classmate)

Well but you know what always happens when Shalom and I meet up =P

Lots of nonsense and unstoppable chats!

Oh yeah and I found another good place to mug, which is the study room at Yuhua CC. I went there today and Friday with Weixin : )

On Friday night half way through studying, 3 policemen came and scanned our bags, cos a girl from our school lost her iphone and the iphone was around the area blah blah. Lolz.

Damn it I feel so motherfucking rusty now....

Feeling so lethargic that I don't even have the urge to break...

Sigh something must be wrong with me.

I'm planning to get a haircut soon, cut it short, really short.

Exam, end soon.

Hate mugging

I hate mugging, I hate being a no life mugger... Around 3 more weeks to go. Endure.

So 29th October is R2TF. Haha nice, after my exam : )

Things change too fast. 

I don't really miss getting down on the floor, well at least for now.

I'm just afraid that I lose my moves.

I don't really miss my bboys friends.

Maybe I'm so occupied by schoolwork and stress. 

Or simply those closer ones are gone.

I'm in a process of starting a new chapter. Haha.

I wanna see how things gonna go after my exam, when I'm back to my life is usually.

Lolz.

Now keep on mugging.