Let The Sun Shines Ray

Sometimes I just hate myself.
Hate my background,
Hate my attitude,
Hate my lifestyle.
Hate my loneliness.
Just hate myself.

I feel very stressed up.

I just realised that I've started to take breaking seriously after my second bboy battle at SBDC qualifier round with Karl and Jonah.
I know what I want now.
Gotta train extra harder.

Study or rather school is a messed up shit.
So does my brain and my mood.
I wanna chill and study but it's so fucking hard to focus.

Can't fucking sleep well.
Always wake up after sleeping for a few hours. Heart pumping fast, but no nightmare.

I freaking shout at people with F word when I feel really irritated and annoyed by them.
Which ridiculously makes me feel that I'm like that sometimes, or being a bitch.

It's something called swagger that's keeping my head up.
Sometimes I'm arrogant.

If not for breaking, I'd have drawn a full stop here, or disappear from where I am for the time being.