: )

It's been awhile to feel so happy since I felt so depressed for the past few days.
Heehee thanks for my dear sis Vivi : )   We had a great talk together for the whole night. I feel so good so go insane with her and pour our crap out. The feeling is totally different from hanging out with guys hahaha :P

Chilled out with Jul before going to break. He treated me for lunch. We had Thai food haha! It's the first time I ate it. It was nice ^^

Couldn't break much. Fuck my back! Omg if Vivi didn't come today, I'd be again emo-ing and staring at them and got very impatient lmao!!



We'll never know what's gonna happen in future and how things will be going on.
Wish all of us good luck for everthing, and get rid of all the shits that have being bothering us.

Bye 2010!

X

29 December 2010

I had a very fucked up mood for the whole day.

I feel so sorry to show my stonned and unhappy face around and being so impatient.

Fuck!!!!!!!!!! Damn I'm so disgusted by myself.

Please don't judge me by what you see. Cos you don't know me.

LOL.

28 December 2010 Tuesday


My last few days of 2010 is just so seriously fucked up. Lmao.


Woke up unconsciously in the middle of the sleep to unplug the handphone charger.
I didn't realised until I woke up this morning and saw my phone's battery was still flat and the charger was lying on the floor -.-
So I lived a day without using it.


Gee I sprained my back by not warming up before doing the bridge transition in a fast speed...
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz................ So didn't really train today.


I have only $1.30 left for the rest of the week : /


Got stalked  by a mother fucker on the way back to home.
Thanks God that I'm save.


Hmm, today's studying at Anson was very efficient heehee~ WOW!!!!!! I felt damn G shit!!!!!!!!
At first, I was so sleepy that I couldn't really focus on what Mark was teaching me about. I wanted to get some 'fresh' air but he said that I could only do so if I finish 10 questions. We did it for 2 rounds haha!
I felt damn good after getting 'fresh' air! I was very awake and my brain was working so good!
Woohoo~~~~~~~


Shit in the same time, I think it's really too much these few days. Almost 1 day 1 pack. Well I do shared some with friends as well.
Kinda relying on it and somtimes even craving for it. But don't worry~ I ain't addicted and I won't get hooked.
Heh on the other side, when I think about it, I can rarely get to have the 'fresh' air after school reopens..
So screw it!

I'm fine : )

27 December 2010 Monday


It feels like a long time since we all trained and had fun together. Well it's actually only a few days.

School's gonna fuck everything up.


I felt much better after talking with Mark.
Yea I wanted to keep it. But I had the mood to share it when we were chilling upstair at Esp.
I'm feeling good now, after talking out, getting some 'fresh' air, and hmm.. Tearing omfg lmao...
Shit happens. Screw it.
I'm thankful that my dear brothas are there for me all the time ♥

Be strong stay cool. No more fucked up mood : )

Random words

It's a simple game. You win when you stop caring about it.


 
 
 
 
I'm happy that I come out with at least 1 new thing everytime I session nowadays.

FML

26 December 2010 Sunday


Everything is just so seriously fucked up for today.


Airport session was awesome. I feel so glad that many of friends came down.

Fuck my phone is totally spoilt when I accidently swung my elbow to the wire of earpiece while reading Jul's message half way. The phone just flew away from my hand and the battery came out.
Until now I can't switch it on.. Luckily friends contacted Shazuan after telling them on facebook. GG...


I had the real good mood to break but the wound that I accidently shaved my skin off by playing with a shaver while staring on computer last night subconciously was still bleeding. And the fucking plasters got adhered on the wound and I had a hard time taking them out.
It couldn't stop bleeding so went to Watson to buy a packet of low-adhering absorbent pads. Hmm thanks Mark for helping with it.
Thus I couldnt really break. I had to rest for awhile after doing one set to make sure that I wouldn't sweat. Screw it.


Bankrupt after asking Shazzy to help me buy the packet. Shit I missed it so much.
More than 10 sticks are gone just in this afternoon. It's too much.. But I had really no mood so yeah...


Came back to home, my finger accidently poked into my left eye while I was washing my face.
What the fuck is going on?? Worse, the contact lens slided to below and I had a hard time taking it out man.


Screw it. Today's just not my day.

25 Decmber 2010 Saturday


We spent our christmas to chill at Saad's house.
His family is very hospitable.  We had great fun and great food there. It was sweet.
Thanks Saad and his mum : )



I'm deceived by my own lies, though they're true on the other side. 
Sometimes I hate for being who I actually am.
I think it's also the reason why I don't like to talk to my parents thus our relationship is so screwed up.
I hate it so much to an extend that I don't even want to hear them talking.

Well I'm thinking too much.
I need to chill and dance more.

~Merry Christmas~

Had a nice chat with Julz today.



I feel that I've changed a lot for this holiday, or rather this month.




I've becoming more matured which probably because of hanging out with people who're much more matured than me.
Which also made me to become a better listener than before. Cos I tend to shut up when friends are talking. Well of course sometimes I'm doing so cos they're talking about something that I don't want to hear.




I no longer keep all the feelings to myself 100%.
Now
I sometimes show off my temper,
I can talk with my big brothers,
I've found better ways to release my stress or get rid of those crap that bother me.
Yeah I got a bit spoilt too.

I'm no more the useless innocent girl who always appeared nice to everyone at every moment when I was being emotional or even pissed off.
I can be a bad girl or a bitch sometimes to show the attitude, gossip or fool around. I speak vulgars more oftenly now. I feel that there's no point controlling. It's just me.


My breaking has improved much much more and faster than before after started hanging out with the group of friends.
My aim is to participate a competition early next year.


Now I know what are true friends and what are they for.
The past is a lesson that I've learnt.

Some people are living in their lies. Which makes everything looks so real. You could never know one's true colour.


Acknowledge your successes along with your downfalls.


Everybody is special and unique.
But we all are just another living thing that exist in this damn world.


Merry Christmas.

23 December 2010 Thursday


Jul treated me for lunch today at Music Cafe : )
Haha it was for my belated birthday.
Thanks dear bro!!


Scape today was freaking boring... Only Julz, Timo and I. Mark's friend came later but we left soon after lolz~
I headed to Esp after that. Woo yeah~ And I had great fun and gossip with Xavier, Shazuan and Vania :P
Oh yeah met Melrick at Scape. Wow kinda not seeing him or not really talking to him for a long time.  He was teaching a new boy. We chatted a bit. Damn now I feel a bit sorry for the 8 idiots : /  I mean ok sorry for showing off a little bit attitude to them. But ehem.. They were the ones who gave me this attitude first man!! I tried to be nice to them at first!!!!!!!!! Never mind screw it. I'm not going to give it a damn anyway~ Lmao~~~

Kk learnt New York from Jul and a half-lotus move from Xav ^_^

Went for dinner at Mc with Vania after session, and went home with FEC~~

Going to have Christmas Eve cypher at Esp with friends haahha!!! Let's go and fly like a G6!!!!! :D





I feel that my character is changing.. Becoming.. Kinda bad and being sarcastic..

I felt empty. How come?
I though I've completely got over the nostalgia for that time.
Screw it. I think I'm just missing his speech lmao. Cos I can learn.

Random words

The biggest scars are unseen and unremembered, always from a smile you forgot long ago. We would never get anything done otherwise.