Let The Sun Shines Ray

Sometimes I just hate myself.
Hate my background,
Hate my attitude,
Hate my lifestyle.
Hate my loneliness.
Just hate myself.

I feel very stressed up.

I just realised that I've started to take breaking seriously after my second bboy battle at SBDC qualifier round with Karl and Jonah.
I know what I want now.
Gotta train extra harder.

Study or rather school is a messed up shit.
So does my brain and my mood.
I wanna chill and study but it's so fucking hard to focus.

Can't fucking sleep well.
Always wake up after sleeping for a few hours. Heart pumping fast, but no nightmare.

I freaking shout at people with F word when I feel really irritated and annoyed by them.
Which ridiculously makes me feel that I'm like that sometimes, or being a bitch.

It's something called swagger that's keeping my head up.
Sometimes I'm arrogant.

If not for breaking, I'd have drawn a full stop here, or disappear from where I am for the time being.

State of mind.

So is everything back to normal now?
You? Me?
I don't know.

Deep inside I don't hope so...
Wanna keep going on.
Don't wanna let go.


Some drama happened today.
Now I know the reason why people aren't respecting you.
Thanks for letting me know. I was dumb I guess? Ot maybe I was just being too kind.
I ain't gonna give a damn.
Yeah guys you're right, I've got all of yall my dear friends : )

I'm still damn weak. Needa be stronger.

Crazy.

Sighing for Japan.............

Sighing for me..........

Damn.
I think I'm crazy I'm mad I'm being a freaking idiot.

Lost control.

Just can't getcha out of my head.
I lost control of my mind.


Imma either go all out for it,
Or getcha out of my head.
Be a bitch, or be a pathetic iodiot.

It's gonna be all up to me.
It's my choice.
But I know deep in my heart, I won't give in.

Shall just be bad and play once.

I shall not lose the game.

Stage without boarders

05 March 2011


It's our first ever roadshow!!

Not really, just a big long cypher that lasted for 3 hours at Orchard Road and we get pay for it :P

It's 'Stage without boarders' organised by Scape.
I really sincerely appreciate the organiser Philip, who cares about us and help us and making effort for people to know us : )

It was awesome! We made a few new friends.
Haha, cos the cypher was too long, we had been repeating some of our sets.
Dancing in the moonlight on the street is dope.
Though a little unhappiness happened, generally it went smoothly : )

I'm injured from yesterday's session : (
Leg freaking pain and swollen.
Maybe I should consider modify that set. It always hurts me : /

After the cypher, we all came back to Scape. It was already 10 30pm. But I decided to break for a lil more while cos those Alleykids guys were there ^^
I was so glad to see them haha! Again, tomorrow gotta clean up the thing I've been taught today ^_^   Yay!!!

I met Syafiq they all, whom I met at RP long time ago today at Cheers!! Omg they called my name, and I got blurred cos I couldn't recognise and remember them at all until I saw Syafiq haha :P


Besides all these, today I was seriously, terribly and completely mind-fucked by a freaking bugger oh damn!
Please don't ever let us see him around again.

Lolz too much crap I wrote. Needa rest now. Exhausted.

Great day!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

04 March 2011

It's already March.

The common test is finally over. Yay party time!!!!!!
I was so happy this morning that I kept smiling to myself on the way to school haha :P

I went for something 'extra' for session today~
Haha, went to Cineleisure to catch the movie The Adjustment Bureau with Zach and David. It was awesome!!!!!!
Zach's birthday is on sunday so~ Haha! I gave him a hug, a.. sweaty hug -.-  Sorry man.

After the I went back to Scape and break for another 1 hour until around 11pm. Lolz today was late, but great!

The session spot wasn't too crowded today. Oh yea talking about this. When those idiots were not there yet, I went upstairs to teach my ex-classmates.

Hehh... Just feel damn sorry for them.
Foundation...
-.-

I still felt damn weak today.
I panted and kinda struggled for breath by just doing a one small set. Not even fast. And it was worst in the beginning.
The stupid flu!!!!!!
Arghh so fucked up.
Lolz I sweat hell lot today! Feels like it was much more than when I go all out -.-

There's a something tomorrow. Can earn $20.
I don't know what's happening so I'll just tag along. Lolz.
Hopefully everything goes smoothly.

I'm getting more irritated by the werido.......... -.-

-.-

It has been so long and I'm still sick -.-
At least don't make me cough like mad!

Zzzzz... Just gotta kill some more papers, bear for one more week to go, and I'll be done for term 1.
Lolz. But fuck, I'll still have to go back to school for some shit the first 3 days of 1 week break.
Stressed...
I'm sick and I still studied so hard. So please, better gimme the good results.

I'm so eager to break : (  Can't wait for friday.
All~~~~ Out~~~~
Needa improve on my breaking. Very much.
So that I can participate my second battle : )  I've already got myself a partner heehee ^^ 

Can't wait for weekend to come!!
I need a break to break and break :P

 

Let The Sun Shine In

This song is breaking my heart. I almost cried.


I'm so freaking sick still. I feel like it's worse than yesterday.
It seems like I've never ever felt so sick before. Well, to be exact for years..
: (

No energy -.-

25 Feb 2011 Friday


Though I just recovered from fever, I'm still freaking sick.
So I had a hard time for the session today.
Cos I felt that I was short of breathe and my heart started to pump so freaking fast just for doing a small chilled set of footwork.
I kept crashing cos I got dizzy and eyes became blurry when I was on the floor. Especially the later part of the session...

Zzzzzz....

This must probably be the feeling of going through hell  -.-

Dva and Chuck also drilled me~~~~~

Omg I've never felt so exhausted before...

But I still went full out haha!! Didn't slack at all in between.

Gotta be fully recovered fast!!!!!!

Hmm but kinda worthy haha! I got some new moves :P


Next week is common test week : (
Damn I don't think I'm ready for it...
Going to Anson with Mark tomorrow to drill my maths.
Shit I don't know how am I going to be fucked by chemistry man...  : /
Sighhhhh.......


Can't wait for March holiday...
I want a break, a break, break break break, break for break...

fEvEr -.-

No wonder I felt like dying for the past 2 days.
I woke up this morning with 38.9 degree body temperatrure -.-

Geeeeeeeez........
Next week is common test man......
What the fuck seriously??!!

Sighhhh..

Hopefully the fever will be gone tomorrow. So that I can go to meet Mark at Anson.
And hopefully after that I can go and break for awhile to sweat it out.

GG.