I wanna smile more

There's a reason why I like to come back home when everyone's asleep. Cos I don't wanna hear the annoying noise that spoils my mood after such a happy day. I like when I'm home all by myself, I like the peace and the silence I want after a day...
It's all the shit... It's all those that fucked up my mood and stopped me from writing a happy blog entry sometimes.
And sometimes, I miss the chilling miggerate on my fingers. It has been a long time.


Yup trained at Scape today. Ivan was there haha finally : )
Improved my windmill but nothing new about others : /
I've got some ideas in mind but I can't do yet -.-


It was quite fun today. Shanyang dropped by here surprisingly!!
I was so happy to see him there after so long ^^  So we had nice talk and also joked around. 
Peter was there too.
Shanyang made a deal with me. Next time we meet, I gonna remember ''Please send cats, monkeys and zebras in large hired cages make sure pedlock good'' by heart, and get good windmill and get my nearly-one-round flare back. I hope that will be soon. I miss talking to him : )


Oh yeah I met Eric and Shin at Scape today too. Miss seeing them around, especially Eric, this cute boy : )




Just like what I told my girl Shalom yesterday. I'm doing good or seem to be good sometimes, but sometimes, I just feel fucking insecure and empty. 
Just a hug or showing some care to me will be enough.
I'm so alone.