Yfest~ EPIC day!

13/08/11 Saturday

(RF showcase.. I wanted to take a video but I couldn't figure out how to use the new camera at that moment -.-)

It's a Saturday for goodness sake.. I slept at 2 30am and woke up at 7 30am automatically... What the hell... I haven't been having enough and good quality sleep ever since last weekend : (   I though of having a good sleep but it ended up like this zzzzzz................. Sigh...

Well I went to Scape after studying. My right wrist's pain has come back to me again cos I've been drilling flare and mills when it's only semi-recovered : (    Furthermore today the shufflers flooded the space, even another spot was taken by the cheerleaders... It sucks man -.-   I really had no mood to break. So I went in to Grid chill with Shalom instead.

I called my buddy Karl. We haven't met for like one or two weeks. I'm having common test next week while he's having his exam the following week  : (   I called him to ask if he was going to watch Yfest, the international bboy showcase and battle at Esp, and also I wanted to know how he's doing. Haha the coincidence is that he just left Esp library!!! Weee so he made his way to Scape ^^  I was so excited and happy to see him after so long >.<   Hmm maybe it's not very long but it feels so yeah~   So we sat on the sofa and had a long chat : )   

After which, Karl and I headed to Esp to watch Yfest. We were too late. So we could only stand at the side : (    We left early too because he had to be home early : /    Nevertheless we had so much fun watching man!! It was so awesome to see all the crazy shit and check out the overseas bboys. Especially Laos. Who will expect to see bboys there??!!! And they're really dope and fresh!!!! RESPECT!

Hmm but the effed up thing is that Karl and I kept hearing haters and idiots standing around us talking crap, commenting and judging the bboys =.=''  It was seriously fucking irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haiz but this is how it is. It's never gonna change.

That's why a pure bboy JAM is our favourite~

We left at 9 30pm. Karl left. But I stayed and hung around with Jiahao they all. They were breaking at the underpass.

Yeah so we all went to have our dinner at Mac. 

Here comes the epic moment!!!!

Somehow we started to talk about this shit that Jason always talks with me AHAHAHAHA!!!!

It's damn fucked up. At first I got quite pissed but after finding out that wow actually everyone feels this way, I found it funny and started laughing non-stop ><

So I called Jason, asked him to come and look for me after he had finished watching the final battle heehee =P

And we then talk non-stop all the way to Yishun where he dropped.

Haha it's so good to see him again after so long! Especially at that moment hahahahaha :D

We're waiting for the next funny shit to come up =P


Oh yea by the way. Before Karl and I going off, we took at short video at the Esp carpark there heehee~ Awesome randomness : )  It was so fun!
Can't wait for next Friday ^^

Geeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........

Sigh I feel I'm still not hardhearted enough,
Am I losing?


I don't think I can do what I want but I still wanna win, fool around and see the suffering...


I shall keep all the shit in mind.


urused.

Still slacking : /

12/8/11 Friday

It was another rather slacking day : (   I feel kinda guilty...


I was supposed to be at Esp library studying. However Dva messaged me just right after I reached there, tempted me to go to Scape... Too bad I couldn't resist -.-  So I went to study at Scape instead. Well at least I've got my work done~
So while I was waiting for Melrick, I went to dance a lil but tried hard not to sweat... Sighh...
Cravis, Kamarul, Sufian, Jap, Yuan Hao, Dee they all were there. Lolz I don't know why I got disturbed by so many of their crap today -.-  Hahaha!! It's kinda like wtf but fun and cute too x.x


Zzz... What a pity that I couldn't stay longer : (   I went to Scape cos I missed my friends~


Hmm but the night out to Esp to watch the hip hop showcase with Melrick was fun too. Tomorrow is the international bboy showcase and battle. Can't wait : ) 


Screw it I'll go to break in the afternoon tomorrow... I can't help it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hardcore mugging on Sunday k?
K.
=.=''

Don't say that word

 

This song is specially dedicated that somebody.

Gonna redeem :S

(My younger bro was still a baby. This is my favourite shot ^^ So adorable)

I've been slacking for the past few days and I didn't really study : x
So I shall make use of this coming weekend, which is that day after tomorrow to redeem. No more Maple Story and hmmm... Only gonna allow myself to break at most twice till the end of next week : (
Sigh....
It's ok, I'll just take this time to let my wrists to recover...


Common test is next week.
Good luck to me.


And I need more sleep.
It's ok, it's just one week.
I can do it.


Fuck stress.
Fuck school.

Crazy day XD

Wooooheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!
School released early today, so I waited for my friends to come for more that three hours -.-
Lolz it was kinda unlucky. Not only my school kids who are usually there, many girls from Sec 4 also came down. I think they were practising an item for teachers' day =.=''  And I tried so fucking hard not to let them recognize me zZZzz...


So yeah I didn't wanna waste my time waiting anymore, and began the session around 3 30pm.
Zach, together with his two friends John and Shawn came finally after nearly 1 hour... Sufian, Khai, Kamarul, Farhan and Syafiq also came after awhile. However Syafiq didn't stay longer cos he had to work.
Oh yeah Nigel and Xav also came at night after we break-fast.


Heehee talking about 'break-fast'. I hadn't really eaten anything since my breakfast at around 5 50am except for drinks.
The timing of break-fast for today was 7 16pm. So Sufian, Khai, Kam and Farhan went to buy KFC take-away at 6 50, and sat on the floor to wait for the clock to tic to 7 16pm sharp.
Haha you might think that I'm crazy but it was kinda fun and yeah, maybe it does teach you how to be patient too~
Next time Imma break-fast with them again hahaha =P


Another crazy thing during session. Nigel was wearing this helmet to train head spin. He did some nonsense to fool around in between while I was drinking water. So I walked to his back and did this 'ready to pour' action and waited for his response, but apparently he didn't notice that I was behind him.
Guess what's next, the moment I pour my ice cold water on his helmet, he screamed so loud that many people turned around to look at him hahaha!!!! We laughed so hard!!!! I'm still laughing now ><
Heehee I'm such a bad ass =P


I haven't been breaking hardcore for 4 days straight. I can feel my stamina is no longer there and my body gets fucked up so easily nowadays : (
Another thing is, being back to train with my lovely friends is really awesome after quite some time. They give me more inspiration, more tips, more guidance, more comments, more energy and definitely, more fun :D
So hmmm... Am I back with them again?? I'm just considering cos sometimes training alone is still better. Furthermore Scape has recently be flooded by shufflers aka those step-ah bengs. That OK!! But the problem is, they always take the dope speaker to blast the fucking tech-tonic... That's why we always move away -.-
Fucked up isn't it?


Sigh how I wish it's a 2-days holiday that I can really enjoy.
Now I've gotta worry about the common test on next week  : (


This fruitful 4-days sessions makes me dying to session and improve more.

The song I always tear to.. Crossroad

...


I wonder if I made the right choice
When I stood on the fork in the road at that time
I wonder what would be on the other one I saw
From the fork in the road I stood on at that time
But I'm still going forward
I haven't yet lost at all


That guy was protecting himself
Only by pretending to be strong
Not to be hurt
I wonder if he can smile naturally now


...


The things that are changing
The things I've changed
The things I can't change
Do you see I can smile naturally?
When I happened to pass by on the road
Where many fond memories were
All around
I felt the warmth and pain


What on earth have I lost
As I grew old ?
What on earth is this that's increasing
As I'm growing old ?
Even this moment when I think like this is
You see, turning into the past, too
I had the feeling
That the profile of someone I passed by now
Looked like that of the girl
I had known before
But why was I just staring at her back
As she walked away
Without even being able to
Call to her?




This song just says everything that I've in my mind.
I always listen to it, keep on repeating, sometimes I tear to this song.
And I'm tearing now.
Such a heartbreaking song to tell me to be strong.


Things are always changing. 
It'll be better.

I wanna smile more

There's a reason why I like to come back home when everyone's asleep. Cos I don't wanna hear the annoying noise that spoils my mood after such a happy day. I like when I'm home all by myself, I like the peace and the silence I want after a day...
It's all the shit... It's all those that fucked up my mood and stopped me from writing a happy blog entry sometimes.
And sometimes, I miss the chilling miggerate on my fingers. It has been a long time.


Yup trained at Scape today. Ivan was there haha finally : )
Improved my windmill but nothing new about others : /
I've got some ideas in mind but I can't do yet -.-


It was quite fun today. Shanyang dropped by here surprisingly!!
I was so happy to see him there after so long ^^  So we had nice talk and also joked around. 
Peter was there too.
Shanyang made a deal with me. Next time we meet, I gonna remember ''Please send cats, monkeys and zebras in large hired cages make sure pedlock good'' by heart, and get good windmill and get my nearly-one-round flare back. I hope that will be soon. I miss talking to him : )


Oh yeah I met Eric and Shin at Scape today too. Miss seeing them around, especially Eric, this cute boy : )




Just like what I told my girl Shalom yesterday. I'm doing good or seem to be good sometimes, but sometimes, I just feel fucking insecure and empty. 
Just a hug or showing some care to me will be enough.
I'm so alone.

Scape is dying.

Yea exactly, Scape is dying.
I went to Scape today just for my bro Ivan as he told me that he's not gonna appear till the end of his A lvl next year.. In the end he couldn't make it cos of a project -.-
I haven't been to there for quite long, and I realised that the dancers there are getting lesser and lesser, especially today. It's a freaking Saturday night, but it was so empty.
Oh well, it's flooded by the annoying shufflers though. The fellas took our spot still -.-


Hmm... We had no music... Kinda, a bored session : /
Hehh but we had some fun still : )

I brought my DSLR along with me, yayy finally got to bring it out ^^ So the boys, took it to camwhore haha! It wasn't a 'normal' one though! Thanks to Chuck!!! He made it an epic camwhore session with all the funny ghostly pose at the background HAHAHA!!! We laughed so hard! XD  


Besides that, I was so bored that I tried windmill after one whole month because of the fucked up wrist injury. And weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't lose my windmill XD  Still a bit pain though but woooohooooooooo!!!!!!!!! I felt sooooooooooooooo damn great :D
Ehh.... I lost my nearly-one-round flare though : (  And I've got a bad feeling that my another wrist, my left wrist is getting worst =.=''   OIII what's wrong sia???!!!


Oh yeah Shalom dropped by just to see me heehee  ^^ We haven't really talked for quite long so we had a heart to heart talk : )  I'm so glad to hear that I helped her to clear her mind.


I'm going to Scape again tomorrow. Hmm, a relaxing weekend before common test : /

Nice yet emo day

Scape again! After not going to Scape on Friday nights for so freaking long!!!
There wasn't much people. And all the people there were my lovely friends ^^
I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo damn freaking lucky to see my dear Dva there!!!!!!!!!! Oh my fuck god we haven't met for months man!!!!!!!!!!!! ><  I was sooooooooooo excited to see him there and we gave each other a hug. He's been busying with his business and study. We talked, fooled around, had lots of fun like how we used to do before... And he also shared some moves with me. I miss this buddy so much : )   So great to see him again! And it's so touching when you get to know there's someone who really cares for you. I tend to go into a deep thought after talking to him. Sometimes it makes me tear too..
Our fond memory with Piwei happened just a few months ago, yet it feels so far away. I miss how we three go crazy together...
Everything changes so fast. I can't catch up with the time.


Dva aside, Andre, Xav, Sufian, Kamarul and Jiahao they all were there. I missed that atmosphere and I missed all of them so much...
I met Vivi today too!! LIKE FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Same as Dee, we haven't met for months already! So we finally got to catch up and had a heart to heart talk : )   Hopefully she'll be doing better.


I was in self-denial... Frankly speaking, I'm closer to them than him. Much closer. I may not trust them as much as I can trust him, but I have more fun, more ideas, more inspiration and I feel much much closer to them... It's weird isn't it? I don't really understand why I've chosen to leave.. Am I just escaping from some fucked up shit, am I just don't wanna see somebody, am I just want a quieter place to practise, or am I just wanna be away for fun?? 
Because of my choice, I feel so fucking alone.
I wish I know myself better. I wish I'm not in another self-denial, I wish I know what I actually want..
I wish everything could go on my way.
I really, sincerely hope to see them again... It all depends on myself though.


I realized that I always listen to hyper and crazy songs on school days. However, most of the times after breaking on weekends, or after having a heart to heart talk to somebody, I'll be breaking the rule and listen to some emo songs. 
Sometimes I just wanna let it out, and break down.


It's just life.
We are always breaking the shell that we have, the process is painful, but once you came out of it, you've grown a lil. However we're in a new shell again.
Breaking out from the shell, grow up a lil, get a new one, then breaking out from the new shell again.
It's just a cycle and we can never get out of it.
Just like how we get more matured by getting out from a dilemma, or getting used to a big change in life,  then we go through another painful and heart-breaking process when we encounter something else.






By the way, I've had enough already. 
And I've decided to play you back : )
I will have fun, not sure bout you.